“Mors Tua, Vita Mea”
|Category: Inoffensive Centrist Democracy|
Regional Influence: Sprat
Location: The North Pacific
Today, me and my girlfriend, who I have been dating since my senior year of high school, with our relationship being a bit rocky, but our love true. But I learned something today. We broke up and became distant for a couple weeks, and then we got back together. But I learned out she didn't love me anymore. That I was following blindly because of my love. Now, after something happened, she told me that she wasn't interested into me or even guys by this point. I have been hurt. I have felt betrayed. But even after all of this I still love her. We are probably going to go back to friends, but even that will fall out, as she knows I still love her.
I have felt betrayed. I cried, tears rushing down my face as my nose ran. I used up half a tissue box, for I was scarred. I was trying to repair myself after all the hurt and pain in my previous years of my life. I thought I was finally going to be in a happy, stable relationship. My heart physically hurts right now. My soul has been clawed out, and marks have scarred it. My life has been utterly destroyed as I think back to the literal years of my life with her. We went on dates. We had fun together. We kissed and hugged and held hands. We were happy together. I don't know what made her not care about me nor love me anymore, but the damage has been done. I'm heavily hurt and betrayed from this. I'm still having tears drop down from my eyes as I type this. My hot tea cup has gone cold. I, just feel, so broken. Like somebody took my heart and smashed it into a million pieces. It, hurts, for all of this. It hurts. My heart physically hurts. My brain just can't handle this. I have never been so sad and depressed in my whole life. I honestly just don't feel I could wake up tomorrow, knowing my whole life has changed. She was a part of me, I was a part of her. We co-existed for so long, we seemed to not even be two separate people at times. We finished each others sentences, and sandwiches, we laughed and played. We were together and happy.
But now that I have learned about this betrayal, I just feel like, everything has fallen out. That nothing exists anymore. That I am just, a dead corpse of what I am.
I apologize in advance if I do not seem like myself for the next few days, weeks, months, maybe even years. I, just, feel so broken.
I'm not trying to pity anybody or make them feel sorry for me. I am just saying what I am feeling right now, as I lost one of the most important people in my life. We had plans of marrying. We had plans of living together. We had plans of having children. But that is just, gone now, like a stone in a river. Just, gone.
I don't know what to do right now except sit on my bed and just cry.
If anybody could help me feel better, I would appreciate it.
This is just, one of the worst days of my life. I am shaken. I am hurt. I just, don't know what to do.
Thank you for reading this if you have gotten this far. I, just, don't know anymore.
Hope you feel better bro!
I just feel like I want support from this amazing game. It seriously feels like the only thing to me right now.
Thanks to everybody who reads and gives support, I would pay you money if I could and give you a hug <3 [/quote]
I’ve never been in a relationship with anyone, but I can tell you that in time, you will get over it.
For example, I technically wasn’t in a relationship with this girl I knew. I was just like you, y’know. All pleasant and great grades, etc.
I met this girl in my health class - and she was amazing. I really look a lot for personality in people, and boy, did she have some great personality.
She was the first person who I could actually relate to, with our artistic skills and odd senses of humor.
Eventually we started talking and talking.
With my art skills, I was even able to draw out a pretty realistic picture of her!
And I wanted to ask her on a date. Which I did - by confession my love for her...but she rejected me.
You see, she was bi-sexual, and she told me that she prefers girls over guys.
Which I was totally fine with...but I was left with a broken heart, like you.
I still longed for her for a month, and to this day, I still remember her. I’m only a sophomore, just to point out. So was she.
She told me that she wished for the best of luck if I ever find anyone special, but to me...she will always be the first one I actually got a chance to say...”I love you.”
From Yes’s song “Owner Of A Lonely Heart”:
You, lose yourself , no not for pity's sake
There's no real reason to be lonely
Be yourself, give your free will a chance
You've got to work to succeed
I can only wish you the best of luck my friend, and I hope you feel better.