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Kingdom of Marlo

With the lifting of persecution against the Catholics in Marlo the church quickly moves to open the old church doors once more. Chapels that had been burnt down are rebuilt from the ashes as missionaries old and new begin ministering to the general public. Pope Romulus the 4th made declaration of the day that God and the church returned to Marlo. Thousands of followers flock their local chapels so to hear the messages of old. One of the most important developments though is a meeting between Romulus and Eden regarding the Chruch of St. Handel, one of the largest churches of the time. Romulus pressed for its reconciliation and replication. "The matters of renovation and reinstatement of that Church would need to be compensated." Eden replied. Romulus nodded. "The church is happy to refinance it in total." The pope replied. Eden nodded and sent word of the request to the bankers of the empire.

United Enclave State wrote:Adam's realized that the people speaking to him had no knowledge of verbal English but his interpretation of the words spoken by the new peoples seemed to strike a cord. He surmised that some of these people had heard of English, or at least the rudimentary Anglo speek. Possibly due to interactions with the Empires explorers or perhaps the voyagers of the Abilon tribes. He reached to the paper an wrote in the older language to help link the gaps. We are an expeditionary ship. We come in search of the worlds secrets beyond our maps. he wrote, hoping they would understand. He paused to understand the second part. Who departed you? then it clicked. We come from the far west. We belong to the ancestors of Abilon. He wrote.

The scribe translated what he could from the written note to the Portmaster.
“Abilon?” The Portmaster, thinking about this supposed land to the west. “Scribe, tell them that they will remain on their ship for another 36 days and if they are willing to tell us anything about this land to the west then they are welcomed too.”
The scribe nodded and wrote what the Portmaster said under his original message and handed it to the captain.

The Benain empire wrote:The scribe translated what he could from the written note to the Portmaster.
“Abilon?” The Portmaster, thinking about this supposed land to the west. “Scribe, tell them that they will remain on their ship for another 36 days and if they are willing to tell us anything about this land to the west then they are welcomed too.”
The scribe nodded and wrote what the Portmaster said under his original message and handed it to the captain.

Adam's read the letter. There was not much room to write on the parchment but he had a journal that he had been writing in. He quickly fetched it and began to write in it. We are part of a reminate belonging to an empire that fell centuries ago. As I mentioned before she is the ancestor of Abilon, this empire once ruled a great amount of land and held in it the most influential faith of it's time. Treachery would see her downfall. In fighting with nobility and the royal family aided by a stubborn spirit left the Empire to fall apart, what was left became what is referred to as the Enclave. I am a captain of its navy, one of the few relics of old to survive until now. Recently our emperor requested for the world to be seen by all men. Ships like my own were sent out to fill in the edges of the map and plot routes to new lands and peoples. I can explain better after we recovered from our condition. He ended the message. He handed the letter to the postmaster to read.

United Enclave State wrote:Adam's read the letter. There was not much room to write on the parchment but he had a journal that he had been writing in. He quickly fetched it and began to write in it. We are part of a reminate belonging to an empire that fell centuries ago. As I mentioned before she is the ancestor of Abilon, this empire once ruled a great amount of land and held in it the most influential faith of it's time. Treachery would see her downfall. In fighting with nobility and the royal family aided by a stubborn spirit left the Empire to fall apart, what was left became what is referred to as the Enclave. I am a captain of its navy, one of the few relics of old to survive until now. Recently our emperor requested for the world to be seen by all men. Ships like my own were sent out to fill in the edges of the map and plot routes to new lands and peoples. I can explain better after we recovered from our condition. He ended the message. He handed the letter to the postmaster to read.

The scribe translated what he could and told it to the Portmaster. The Portmaster thought about it, nodded his approval to the captain and left. The Portmaster arranged for fresh meat and some coin to be brought to the ship as payment for the information.

Phoenix-Bearer Aoife looked over the future battlefield, his army holding formation in sight of a castle that rebelled against his rule. An army guards the army, mostly peasants forced to fight and mercenaries.
“Send the Cavalry to flank then send the Infantry in, slow at first then have them charge.” Flag bearers, drummers and officers worked to relay the orders to the rest of the army, the cavalry went first then the frontline infantry, consisting of Northerners, marched forward, ready to bring burn another castle for rebelling.

Upon the request of the King, Pope Romulus is summoned to Castle Raven Rock. The Pope had spent many of days in the Cathedral of St.
John. The pope tipped his head to the monarch. "How may I be of assistance your majesty?" Eden arose. "I have been of great interest to the developments in the country of Marlo. The opening of churches has seen a growth in the icom back to the Church and in turn the Empire." Romulus stroked his beard. "Indeed, with the use of the peoples tithes and giving nature for the chruch we have seen a small economic revival. We have implemented this over all of our horribly worn churches and ministry." Eden nodded at the mention. "Perhaps you would give your opinion on some new developments we have had." Eden turned to a servant and placed a torn flag on the table. "Pirates." The pope replied. "Horrible heathens of evil. What is it about them you request?" Eden then moved to have a paper rolled out onto the table.

The image was frightening as it was inspiring. "You wish to build this?" Romulus mused. "The only question was the use of such a devise would be considered heretical?" The pope reviewed it. "No, let them burn in the hellfire of God. This will be a great tool in our rebirth as a nation. Not only one more connected to God, but together as a people." The pope turned to make his way to the door. "You must excuse me your majesty, I have a meeting to the north." Romulus replied. Leaving the throne room.

With the current anti pirate stance between our two holy empires Rambosea sends a diplomat to the Enclave to discuss our nation's relationship. The ship rude shouldn't be long just a week or so.

The Rambosean diplomats make landing in the Port city of Biern. The local governer and the Gaurdsmen of the port make way to meet the sailors from the north. General Karlen of the Biern gaurd steps foward. "Whom do you come to represent?"

United Enclave State wrote:The Rambosean diplomats make landing in the Port city of Biern. The local governer and the Gaurdsmen of the port make way to meet the sailors from the north. General Karlen of the Biern gaurd steps foward. "Whom do you come to represent?"

Yes I am lord Walker of Rambosea and I come for the Rambosean Enclave affairs and discuss the future of our holy empires future.

Rambotania wrote:Yes I am lord Walker of Rambosea and I come for the Rambosean Enclave affairs and discuss the future of our holy empires future.

Karlen nodded. "The holy father has been awaiting your arrival with great interest. Please fallow me." Karlen replied. The two made there way to the governor's manor. Inside the banquet hall was Romulus with a group of officials of the church. "Welcome my northern friends to the Enclave. I am the Holy father of the Church Romulus the 1st." He mentioned. "Now, I have heard that you have both requests of religious and military interests. She we begin?" The old man replied.

United Enclave State wrote:Karlen nodded. "The holy father has been awaiting your arrival with great interest. Please fallow me." Karlen replied. The two made there way to the governor's manor. Inside the banquet hall was Romulus with a group of officials of the church. "Welcome my northern friends to the Enclave. I am the Holy father of the Church Romulus the 1st." He mentioned. "Now, I have heard that you have both requests of religious and military interests. She we begin?" The old man replied.

Of course it has come to my attention our two nation's are very much alike and have the same interests. Emperor Killmore sent me here himself and is asking for a military Alliance aswell as union of our great religion. Sense we are the two major Catholic powers this is very important for our future walker replyed.

Rambotania wrote:Of course it has come to my attention our two nation's are very much alike and have the same interests. Emperor Killmore sent me here himself and is asking for a military Alliance aswell as union of our great religion. Sense we are the two major Catholic powers this is very important for our future walker replyed.

Pope Romulus stroked his beard. "This is of interest. A military alliance is interesting." He smiled. "And a union of our two religious bodies is of great value. I would like to hear your thoughts on the separation of powers within our society regarding this." The pope replied.

United Enclave State wrote:Pope Romulus stroked his beard. "This is of interest. A military alliance is interesting." He smiled. "And a union of our two religious bodies is of great value. I would like to hear your thoughts on the separation of powers within our society regarding this." The pope replied.

As for separate powers we were thinking letting our pope control the Rambosean capital as in religion and you be the supreme pope of the world and together we can spread the word of Catholic beliefs. By force if needed.
As for our military agreement we will help you on the conquest for a unifying Catholic world.
But to ensure our success we must work together and destroy the pirate threat.

Rambotania wrote:As for separate powers we were thinking letting our pope control the Rambosean capital as in religion and you be the supreme pope of the world and together we can spread the word of Catholic beliefs. By force if needed.
As for our military agreement we will help you on the conquest for a unifying Catholic world.
But to ensure our success we must work together and destroy the pirate threat.

The pope chuckles. "This is most pleasing. I will grant this request. King Eden has had some very large gripes with the pirates and their allies. The Enclave will dedicate resources to their elimination, slowly as to increase our own profits during a wartime crisis." The pope remarked.

United Enclave State wrote:The pope chuckles. "This is most pleasing. I will grant this request. King Eden has had some very large gripes with the pirates and their allies. The Enclave will dedicate resources to their elimination, slowly as to increase our own profits during a wartime crisis." The pope remarked.

It was a pleasure doing business with you. I hope to see you again. The diplomat brings forth a golden sword as a gesture of good will and hands it to the pope.

Rambotania wrote:It was a pleasure doing business with you. I hope to see you again. The diplomat brings forth a golden sword as a gesture of good will and hands it to the pope.

The Pope thankfully accepts the sword

The diplomat would leave the building and head twords his ship to head home.

Heavy sigh.

Where to begin...

Let's go with the beginning, I guess.

Note: Some of the timing here is a little scrambled, exact order of events is difficult to remember.

As long as I can remember, I've had a really strange talent for gaining peoples' trust, or at least something close to it. Y'know, I have a really odd tendency to always be everyone's right-hand guy. Managing and assisting in peoples' campaigns, drafting needed documents, aiding in leadership, advising people, being a confidante for peoples' secrets. All that nonsense.

I don't really know why or how. Like, I can lie well enough, but that's based on tons of study of how to do that, and even then I don't pull it off well. I've never been a natural liar.

Yet constantly people end up allowing me to help them, be their assistant, second-in-command, friend, etc.

I'm just a little bit ashamed to say I abuse that. A lot.

I tend to be a very ambitious person. I have lofty goals and aspirations, and I tend to be willing to do whatever I have to to attain them. In the case of Liberalia, it took me a month's time to know exactly what I wanted: the throne. Not that there was a throne at the time, but the equivalent. I wanted to succeed Klorgia.

Basically everything I've ever done in Liberalia has been in service of that goal. The plan was simple:

First, I become Klorgia's friend. Second, become the friend of the individuals who had influence over him. Third, use my newfound influence to destroy each and every one of those individuals by making them look like traitors or by inciting conflict between them and Klorgia. Fourth, secure in a legal fashion my position as Klorgia's heir. Fifth, destroy Klorgia.

Obviously this plan has gone awry, but I'll go through it anyway.

The first step was extremely simple. Klorgia was a trusting person. And I was a new, ambitious, energetic, and generally fun (I like to think, anyway) member of the region. And also I was a major fan of a musical, which complemented nicely with Klorgia's theatrical talents and interests. It took just a little while (plus Pizza's resignation as Consulate), for Klorgia to appoint me as acting Diplomat.

Now, that might have been enough. But I find the best way to secure someone's friendship and to prove your loyalty is to choose their interests over your own. And Klorgia provided me with a perfect opportunity during my race against Aden.

See, Klorg voted for Aden. During my early start as Diplomat, I proposed a plan which focused on a general embassy wipe, something I still think was a good idea. Klorgia considered embassies to be a method of recruitment, and wanted to maintain them. Since he didn't like my foreign policy ideas, he supported Aden.

Seeing an opportunity, I began preaching that Klorgia should have more power over the government, and that I would only support his candidate, and that I therefore planned to drop out of the race. Surprise, surprise, by appealing to Klorgia's God complex, I won his vote. His support tied up the race.

The race was resolved by a... well, I've often said it was rigged, but saying that is mostly meant to make Klorg look bad. I don't believe it was rigged as much as it had a glaringly obvious bias that Klorg didn't consider. Either way, I easily won.

Now, step two was to secure the friendship of individuals who held influence in the government. I had to start doing this while I secured my relationship with Klorg. Now, I find that the best way to gain influence over members of government is to create members of government over which you already have influence. There's a quote: "When your enemies defy you, you must serve them steel and fire. When they go to their knees, however, you must help them back to their feet."

Basically, destroy your enemy, and then help them back up, but keep their success dependent upon yourself. That way, you will always hold influence over them.

Knowing all this, I turned to the candidate I had defeated, Aden, and offered him the position of Diplomat.

All this meant that I had defeated Aden, yet shown him mercy and aided him in attaining the second best position. That gave me influence over him, which increased my influence over the government.

Now, back to Klorg. I continued to work to gain influence over him by assisting in foreign affairs and proving my worth as Consulate. I slowly became a friend to him. Meanwhile, I did the same with other key Liberalians: Eaglenest, Aden, Benain, Uoool. I focused on achieving friendship or at least influence over all of them.

Steps one and two? Done. Easy. Step three is where things get crazy.

See, I planned to incite conflict between these influential individuals and Klorgia. But it was supposed to be on my timeline, when I was ready.

And then shìt started hitting the fan before I could get anywhere near ready.

I knew Eaglenest was the most likely candidate for conflict with Klorgia. He was sort of a good mirror to me: Ambitious in a healthy way, passionate about the success of himself and the region. Obviously he would come into conflict with Klorgia's iron grip on power.

But I meant for me to incite that conflict and control it, not for it to start on its own with no control over any of it.

Eaglenest and Klorgia got into a fight over the roleplay. And then Klorgia made himself look like an asshole by passing a set of rp rules which literally gave him the power to rule on all rp disputes at any time.

And Klorgia, I know that this whole factbook is about how I've been the villain this whole time and how you've mostly not been at fault, but honest opinion: That set of rules was terrible. You like to think you're an unbiased leader, but you rule in your own favor every time. You would've just overruled Eaglenest every time, so when I said the Freedom Bill was coming in some form or another, that's accurate, and that rule set was the moment when you proved just how willing you were to give yourself unlimited power.

Anyway, back to the story.

So, things were getting heated, and I saw a golden opportunity. I create a new Discord server, a private project, where I specifically, deliberately appointed Eaglenest as my chief mod and left Klorgia without a spot.

Now, anyone knows that Klorgia really likes being in charge of things. So, true to form, he requests a position as a mod. I lead him down a conversation to get him to say things that make him sound like he thinks he's owed a spot (he didn't think this, by the way, I spun the conversation to sound like that).

I took screenshots of all of it. Appoint him as a mod. Naturally, Eaglenest, having already existing disputes with Klorgia, questions why I appointed Klorg as a mod. I tell him of the conversation, drop a couple screenshots, play the card of "Oh, he's the founder of the region and I don't feel comfortable disobeying him because he's basically a God in Liberalia."

Eaglenest was already upset with Klorg. He already had issues with him. But playing to that allowed me to unlock that anger a little bit. To get him to go on about how mad he was, and to express his desire for a democracy. And by playing along, I gave him what he needed: an ally. Someone who he thought understands and sympathized with his anger toward Klorg.

So I wrote a bill. A bill that would be treasonous to support. A bill that certain individuals would love to put their name on. Eaglenest signed on. I got the entire Liberalian government to sign on in addition.

I knew by then my talent for weaseling my way out of trouble, for gaining opponents' trust after stabbing them in the back. I knew that I could get out of the bonfire that was about to be the Liberalian government.

But I had constructed what was, in affect, a confession to treason and disloyalty toward Klorg, and I had gotten it signed by the entire government. Step three? Ready to fire.

I announced with flourish the bill, and let the chaos rise. Immediately, shots are fired, the private discussions between government members become a warzone.

And at this point, Eaglenest just starts pouring out gold. Eaglenest doesn't have a filter, he says what he believes, and he's passionate enough to let his mouth move faster than his head. And in one of those moments, he proposes secession from Liberalia.

And goddamnìt, I could've sung with joy. "Eaglenest is organizing secession," I say to Klorgia. "If you don't pass this, he'll walk out with half the region."

Now, Klorgia was hesitant to believe this. After all, Eaglenest was his longtime friend, right? Now, all I had to do was make Eaglenest follow through on his words.

But it would take something monumental to get Eaglenest to do that. Klorgia would have to do something crazy. Banning someone, probably. Banning me?

If I were banned without good reason, Eaglenest would undoubtedly walk out. And with one fatal blow, I could crush the entire Liberalian government. Weasel my way out, secure myself as Klorgia's sole advisor.

So I had to find a way to get Klorgia to ban me, without actually doing anything wrong. I had to find some way to monumentally piss Klorg off without committing a crime.

And what's a fact that was becoming increasingly prevalent about Klorg?

He can't handle being criticized. He doesn't like being told he's doing something wrong.

Now, an election was rolling around, and I noticed Klorg change his vote a couple times. I know how to make anything look like a grand conspiracy, so I set about doing that. Writing a story about how Klorgia was using his influence to manipulate the vote and unseat strongly pro-Eaglenest Uoool.

And as I made conversations with people, I discovered something even better: Rhomanya and Sircana, two of the candidates running, were the same person. This was a golden opportunity to strike down another member of the Liberalian government! Now, Sircana could deny, so I needed a confession.

I went to Sircana. I explained that I wanted to tell a story about how Klorgia was trying to manipulate the election. And if Sircana could confess, that would help in writing it (may I point out that this makes zero sense, there was no way I could have used that). Sircana did confess. Better yet, as he confessed, he tried to defend himself by ratting out two other people. His opposing candidate, Uoool, was using Cassiliya as a secondary account. And better yet: Klorgia knew about both Sircana and Uoool's crimes and was allowing it.

I literally could've asked for nothing better. I had started out aiming to construct a fragile lie about Klorgia manipulating voters. I had come out with two confessions (I got one from Uoool as well) to real election fraud by Klorgia, Uoool, and Sircana.

I could take out Uoool and Sircana, and get Klorg to ban me, thereby getting Eaglenest (and possibly Aden) to leave the region, all in one ungodly fell swoop.

And that's what I did. I released the factbook. Benain quickly ruled to prevent Sircana from running for office in the future and Uoool from running for one election cycle. Klorg, calling me a liar, banned me. Eaglenest left the region.

I them proceeded to chat with Klorgia, weasel my way out of it, and get back to the region.

Now, it wasn't perfect. Aden was still here, and Uoool was merely damaged, not removed. Now, rather interestingly, through all of this, I maintained the trust of Eaglenest, Aden, and Uoool. And by the conversations I had before coming back, I managed to rewing Klorg's trust.

After all, Eaglenest had threatened to secede, and I had warned Klorgia. And Klorgia had decided I was lying, choosing to trust Eaglenest. And now Eaglenest had followed through on his secession. So clearly, Eaglenest was the lying snake and I was the one who was honestly trying to make the best of a bad situation and help Klorg out. Clearly.

It took little more effort than that to make Eaglenest out to Klorgia as the big bad villain. Suddenly, Klorgia and Eaglenest both thought I was on their side, both talking to me about their anger and feelings toward the other.

I played attempted peacemaker, making vague and unhelpful attempts to de-emotionalize the situation while slowly furthering conflict. I drove Klorgia nearly to the brink, made sure Eaglenest never wanted to return to a Klorgia-owned Liberalia again.

Aden was still there, but his influence was waning, and still ultimately dependent on me (I could have dismissed him as Diplomat at any time). Benain was fully present, but he was quiet, less likely to exercise his power in a damaging way to my ambitions. Uoool was still there, but as Eaglenest's closest ally, his influence over Klorg was virtually gone.

My power was at its height.

And then... I left.

It's a little difficult to explain why. Everything was going perfectly. Klorg was heavily considering leaving the game, I had an honest shot at being his successor, all my major opponents were out of the way.

But I was starting to get the vague sense that something was wrong with me. I knew I was hurting people, and at one point I had a phone call with Klorg, and... I didn't really feel anything. I didn't feel any empathy for him, I didn't feel bad about bringing him near the breaking point.

And tbh, that scared me. That I was destroying people's friendships, virtual and irl, and damaging their mental and physical health, all in the name of increasing my own power in a virtual game.

So I vanished. I briefly tried to start anew with a new account, to be an honest member of the UA, but my identity was quickly determined, so I abandoned it. I left NS for about three months. I was constantly tempted to go back, but I knew my membership in Liberalia was damaging to Liberalia, its members, and myself.

But eventually I got bored. I had moved to Washington State, I was settling into a new school, and I missed the political thrill of Liberalia. So I ran back.

It had been months, so I knew there would be changes.

When I came back, I quickly discovered the new major faces in the region, who would be my key opponents for influence. Most notably, these were Camp, Pi, Aav, and Drowsy. Aden and Benain were still there, of course.

So I took it upon myself to destroy each of these individuals, or to make their power dependent upon my own.

My first ploy was an obvious one: Paint Pi and Aav as dictators over the server. It really wasn't a hard picture to paint. Liberalia used to be very... libertarian in the way the server was governed, and the new structure and actual rules was easy to poke at, especially because some people were already mad about it.

Unfortunately (for me), Klorg was very favorable toward them. It took me all of two days to realize that he wouldn't be taking them down. It also took me all of two days to realize that Klorg's time as leader was waning. I don't know what gave me that impression, exactly. Just something in the overall tone of the region. And the successor, to me, was obvious: Aav.

So I resolved that if I couldn't destroy Aav before they rose to leadership, then I would become their right-hand man as quickly as possible.

Now, I wouldn't say I was necessarily successful at that. Aav is, whether they know it or not, a phenomenal political player. I could never tell whether I was their closest ally or not even important in their plans. But I did what I could: I tried to function as a helpful, useful mod, I conducted espionage on their enemies, I became a citizen of Hartfelden, all of it. Still have no idea how much influence over them I actually held.

As for the other major opponents of mine, Pi kindly left his position as a mod, which removed his threat. Camp took care of himself with his... er, discomforting behavior that got him banned.

I continued to try to keep Klorgia at the brink through this, hoping to make him leave due to the stress of it. I (may have) succeeded with this. That is, he left. I'm not entirely sure if it was because of me or other reasons (or, likely, a combination of factors).

Benain was appointed as his successor (I knew this beforehand, as Klorgia voiced to me in private his decision to make Benain his successor). Benain acted largely based on Klorgia's wishes, which was worrying, since those wishes distinctly involved "Do not let R&S have power." Worse, he appointed Drowsy as Crown Prince. Drowsy was very active in enforcing his wishes, which scared me (I had given him some trouble earlier on in my attempts to remove Aav and Pi). Meanwhile, Aden's anti-monarchist ideas (and anti-mod ones, now that I was an ally to Aav) were becoming a threat to the possibility of me rising to power (after all, if a democracy were actually established, game over for rising to the throne).

If I was going to control Benain and Drowsy, I would need to control the Court. And if I was going to minimize the actual ability to remove the monarchy, I needed to own the Senate and/or the CA, preferably by controlling the anti-monarchists myself.

In conclusion, I needed to quickly create a large anti-monarchist party, led by someone who I could easily manipulate into doing what I needed. If only there was a suitable candidate...

I reached out to Eaglenest, inviting him back to the region. He took care of bringing the rest of the UA. Aden joined up, we had a nice anti-monarchist party.

I took the prerogative to create an amendment disbanding the monarchy (that way no one else would), and then just had to make sure it was delayed. I actually didn't even have to come up with any excuses, because of all the craziness we went through.

Anyway, as this was going on, I made a grab at PM, hoping that maybe I'd get lucky, but I didn't.

Which was fine, since I had really friendly relations at this point with both Aav and Eaglenest, and was thereby able to secure a cabinet spot no matter who won.

Anyway, Benain, as expected, chose a UA candidate for Chief Justice (I was lucky enough that Benain chose Eaglenest). I mostly did Eaglenest's interview for him to keep him from saying anything that might endanger his candidacy (and also to keep Aav from making him look like an idiot, which they nearly did on multiple occasions because Latin).

Things are going well.

Now, Drowsy is becoming an increasingly prevalent threat, and I need to minimize popular support for Aav (after all, if they become too powerful, I've got another Klorg to deal with), so I focus on stoking the already simmering anti-Aav, anti-Drowsy fire. Not difficult, given how much they were already unhappy with them.

And then everything goes crazy.

Benain steps back and hands the throne to Drowsy. Ok, I think, I'll just focus on using my control (via Eaglenest) of the Court in order to limit his power. And then everything goes crazier. Everyone gets angry at Drowsy, Drowsy nearly starts a civil war, Aav is appointed as Crown Prince, Drowsy steps back and leaves the region, Aav becomes Emperor, we refound.

All at once, Aav has risen to the throne (as I predicted), and Drowsy, one of my key opponents, is out of the game.

But more dangerous, Aav is now PM and Emperor. Opposing them is a death wish. And, far more importantly, there's a new question: Who will be Aav's Crown Prince?

Obvious answer: Me.

Or, at least, that's the goal.

I began chatting with Aav and the UA about who the Crown Prince would be. I always pointed out how there were no good options, listing off how Rambo wasn't fit for the spot, Myno wasn't active enough, John was too new, and everyone else was UA. Whenever my name was brought up, I shot it down, pointing out that, as part of the UA and a vehement anti-monarchist, my name wasn't really on the table.

My hope was that, as someone who had been advising Aav and conducting some level of espionage (I'd argue it was less espionage and more just general reporting on the situation) while apparently having no ambition for royalty, I might be picked.

Eaglenest was at this point growing... conscious, a little bit, that some sort of game was being played. He knew some sort of espionage was being conducted on the UA, and tried to pin it to Aden. And LM was realizing very fast exactly what I was doing (btw, kudos to LM for being possibly the brightest person in the region for connecting the dots very fast as to what kind of person I was).

So with all of this I ditched the UA, condemning it for a variety of reasons. I did this with Aden.

Aden and I began planning to launch a PM candidate between us. Originally, we were planning on competing with Aav and Eaglenest, but Eaglenest notified me that, thanks to my words, the UA would not be sending a candidate, leaving the race to likely be between Aav and whoever Aden and I sent.

I once again played the card of being uninterested in the spot and encouraging Aden to run. Aden seemed disinterested and instead encouraged me to run. However, when the UA decided they would support Aden as a compromise candidate, Aden decided he would run.

At this point, everything begins to unravel.

Aav pulls a plot twist on all of us by informing me they are planning an Edict to abolish the monarchy. Given that my entire goal is inheriting the throne, I really don't want this to go through. So, naturally, I turn to the Court.

Eaglenest, while annoyed that I betrayed the UA, was willing to work with me, as he also disagreed with the method of the monarch's abolishment. He agreed that it was unconstitutional, and asked me to provide an explanation as to why. I gave him one, told him to copy-and-paste it. I screenshotted all of this (I'd long since gotten in the habit of photographing every political discussion I had in case I could use it later).

Eaglenest releases the statement. Aav requests a trial. Eaglenest and I agree. Aav requests that the trial be dropped because Eaglenest has a bias. Eaglenest chooses not to.

And this is the point where I realize Eaglenest is at least a hundred miles out of his depth. Because I knew how well Aav knew court trials and how little Eaglenest actually understood the process, and because I wasn't confident in my ability to defeat Aav in a debate, I knew that, if Eaglenest made the trial go forward, Aav would easily win. Now, either Eaglenest would rule for Aav, and basically all my work would be for nothing, or Eaglenest would rule for me, in which case he would look unbelievably corrupt and Aav would tear him apart (and, though Aav would have to pick a Crown Prince, it certainly wouldn't be me).

Trying to think quickly, I review the Edict. Now, the Founder remains as a position though with no legal power except in emergency cases. However, because of how NS works, they maintain mechanical power. Now, the position would only be handed over to someone when Aav retired as Founder. That would probably be months, maybe years down the line. That's a really long wait. But if I somehow maintain my position as a close ally to them, maybe, just maybe, I'd get handed the spot when they leave. And then I could use the mechanical power to fully take over the region, in completion of my original goals.

So my number one priority at this point is maintaining my spot at Aav's side (if I ever held such a spot). I can drop the trial, but that won't be enough. So I resolved to commit one of the crueler acts of my long, winding path. I sent Aav the screenshots, providing testimony to Eaglenest's corruption, and pretending the entire trial had been a ruse to root him out.

Eaglenest and LM left, the Edict passed, and I resolved to play the long game.

And then I left. Mostly because NS was starting to affect my grades again, and then I was on vacation.

It's hard to explain. I keep taking absences from NS, attempting to quit. I realize more and more that I have serious issues of my own I need to work out, and that I'm hurting people and that's not OK.

I used to compare NS to cocaine because I'm stuck on it like a drug. And every time I quit, I feel that pull. "If you don't make it to the top, you've wasted this year and four months for nothing," it says. And I bend to it every time.

Tbh, big dispatches by me explaining "Oh, I have emotional problems," and "Oh, I'm quitting NS!" are kind of commonplace. Camp told me last time that I needed to quit before it became a boy-who-cried-wolf type scenario.

My hope is that, by telling everyone the full story, explaining that every moment, every interaction, every decision, has all been in the service of taking this region over, and explaining the amount of pain and suffering I put people through, that I won't be welcome back, and I won't be able to come back.

That is, by destroying my chance of ever rising to power, I can stop feeling compelled to come back in an attempt to.

And I wish that I could say I feel sorry, or that I wish I hadn't done any of this. But... I dunno. I don't really feel that. Whatever I should be feeling, guilt or whatever, just isn't coming to me.

Anyway, I hope and assume Aav did something about my absence in relation to my government spot. On the chance they haven't, I resign as Minister of Foreign Affairs and recommend Aden for the position.

And though I don't think a criminal code has been passed yet (maybe one has, I dunno), I also confess in full to:
- Treason
- Emotional Manipulation
- Social Manipulation
- Psychological Manipulation
- Espionage
- Fraud
- Incitement
- Insubordination
- Conspiracy to Blackmail

And any and all other charges that can be found in my testimony above.

Hopefully I won't be coming back. And if I do, please do not fall for any attempt at looking for forgiveness.

Also, please, someone, make a copy of this factbook in case I try to delete it later.

Au revoir. I'm going to go try to get a therapist or something.

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Au revoir.

Rebels and Saints wrote:page=dispatch/id=1396907

Au revoir.

Your actions are quite detestable, but I don't blame you. You went to extreme lengths to get to your goals, and squashed anyone who go in your way like a bug. That just proves that you have the ability to be a ruthless politician. Sure, I was mad at you for the events leading up to my temporary departure, but its just politics man. I forgave you and I miss hanging out with you and aden. I hope one day you can get passed this and be our friend again, but in the mean time, we will miss you greatly (btw, one of the bots in Las Luces broke)

Rebels and Saints wrote:
Heavy sigh.

Where to begin...

Let's go with the beginning, I guess.

Note: Some of the timing here is a little scrambled, exact order of events is difficult to remember.

As long as I can remember, I've had a really strange talent for gaining peoples' trust, or at least something close to it. Y'know, I have a really odd tendency to always be everyone's right-hand guy. Managing and assisting in peoples' campaigns, drafting needed documents, aiding in leadership, advising people, being a confidante for peoples' secrets. All that nonsense.

I don't really know why or how. Like, I can lie well enough, but that's based on tons of study of how to do that, and even then I don't pull it off well. I've never been a natural liar.

Yet constantly people end up allowing me to help them, be their assistant, second-in-command, friend, etc.

I'm just a little bit ashamed to say I abuse that. A lot.

I tend to be a very ambitious person. I have lofty goals and aspirations, and I tend to be willing to do whatever I have to to attain them. In the case of Liberalia, it took me a month's time to know exactly what I wanted: the throne. Not that there was a throne at the time, but the equivalent. I wanted to succeed Klorgia.

Basically everything I've ever done in Liberalia has been in service of that goal. The plan was simple:

First, I become Klorgia's friend. Second, become the friend of the individuals who had influence over him. Third, use my newfound influence to destroy each and every one of those individuals by making them look like traitors or by inciting conflict between them and Klorgia. Fourth, secure in a legal fashion my position as Klorgia's heir. Fifth, destroy Klorgia.

Obviously this plan has gone awry, but I'll go through it anyway.

The first step was extremely simple. Klorgia was a trusting person. And I was a new, ambitious, energetic, and generally fun (I like to think, anyway) member of the region. And also I was a major fan of a musical, which complemented nicely with Klorgia's theatrical talents and interests. It took just a little while (plus Pizza's resignation as Consulate), for Klorgia to appoint me as acting Diplomat.

Now, that might have been enough. But I find the best way to secure someone's friendship and to prove your loyalty is to choose their interests over your own. And Klorgia provided me with a perfect opportunity during my race against Aden.

See, Klorg voted for Aden. During my early start as Diplomat, I proposed a plan which focused on a general embassy wipe, something I still think was a good idea. Klorgia considered embassies to be a method of recruitment, and wanted to maintain them. Since he didn't like my foreign policy ideas, he supported Aden.

Seeing an opportunity, I began preaching that Klorgia should have more power over the government, and that I would only support his candidate, and that I therefore planned to drop out of the race. Surprise, surprise, by appealing to Klorgia's God complex, I won his vote. His support tied up the race.

The race was resolved by a... well, I've often said it was rigged, but saying that is mostly meant to make Klorg look bad. I don't believe it was rigged as much as it had a glaringly obvious bias that Klorg didn't consider. Either way, I easily won.

Now, step two was to secure the friendship of individuals who held influence in the government. I had to start doing this while I secured my relationship with Klorg. Now, I find that the best way to gain influence over members of government is to create members of government over which you already have influence. There's a quote: "When your enemies defy you, you must serve them steel and fire. When they go to their knees, however, you must help them back to their feet."

Basically, destroy your enemy, and then help them back up, but keep their success dependent upon yourself. That way, you will always hold influence over them.

Knowing all this, I turned to the candidate I had defeated, Aden, and offered him the position of Diplomat.

All this meant that I had defeated Aden, yet shown him mercy and aided him in attaining the second best position. That gave me influence over him, which increased my influence over the government.

Now, back to Klorg. I continued to work to gain influence over him by assisting in foreign affairs and proving my worth as Consulate. I slowly became a friend to him. Meanwhile, I did the same with other key Liberalians: Eaglenest, Aden, Benain, Uoool. I focused on achieving friendship or at least influence over all of them.

Steps one and two? Done. Easy. Step three is where things get crazy.

See, I planned to incite conflict between these influential individuals and Klorgia. But it was supposed to be on my timeline, when I was ready.

And then shìt started hitting the fan before I could get anywhere near ready.

I knew Eaglenest was the most likely candidate for conflict with Klorgia. He was sort of a good mirror to me: Ambitious in a healthy way, passionate about the success of himself and the region. Obviously he would come into conflict with Klorgia's iron grip on power.

But I meant for me to incite that conflict and control it, not for it to start on its own with no control over any of it.

Eaglenest and Klorgia got into a fight over the roleplay. And then Klorgia made himself look like an asshole by passing a set of rp rules which literally gave him the power to rule on all rp disputes at any time.

And Klorgia, I know that this whole factbook is about how I've been the villain this whole time and how you've mostly not been at fault, but honest opinion: That set of rules was terrible. You like to think you're an unbiased leader, but you rule in your own favor every time. You would've just overruled Eaglenest every time, so when I said the Freedom Bill was coming in some form or another, that's accurate, and that rule set was the moment when you proved just how willing you were to give yourself unlimited power.

Anyway, back to the story.

So, things were getting heated, and I saw a golden opportunity. I create a new Discord server, a private project, where I specifically, deliberately appointed Eaglenest as my chief mod and left Klorgia without a spot.

Now, anyone knows that Klorgia really likes being in charge of things. So, true to form, he requests a position as a mod. I lead him down a conversation to get him to say things that make him sound like he thinks he's owed a spot (he didn't think this, by the way, I spun the conversation to sound like that).

I took screenshots of all of it. Appoint him as a mod. Naturally, Eaglenest, having already existing disputes with Klorgia, questions why I appointed Klorg as a mod. I tell him of the conversation, drop a couple screenshots, play the card of "Oh, he's the founder of the region and I don't feel comfortable disobeying him because he's basically a God in Liberalia."

Eaglenest was already upset with Klorg. He already had issues with him. But playing to that allowed me to unlock that anger a little bit. To get him to go on about how mad he was, and to express his desire for a democracy. And by playing along, I gave him what he needed: an ally. Someone who he thought understands and sympathized with his anger toward Klorg.

So I wrote a bill. A bill that would be treasonous to support. A bill that certain individuals would love to put their name on. Eaglenest signed on. I got the entire Liberalian government to sign on in addition.

I knew by then my talent for weaseling my way out of trouble, for gaining opponents' trust after stabbing them in the back. I knew that I could get out of the bonfire that was about to be the Liberalian government.

But I had constructed what was, in affect, a confession to treason and disloyalty toward Klorg, and I had gotten it signed by the entire government. Step three? Ready to fire.

I announced with flourish the bill, and let the chaos rise. Immediately, shots are fired, the private discussions between government members become a warzone.

And at this point, Eaglenest just starts pouring out gold. Eaglenest doesn't have a filter, he says what he believes, and he's passionate enough to let his mouth move faster than his head. And in one of those moments, he proposes secession from Liberalia.

And goddamnìt, I could've sung with joy. "Eaglenest is organizing secession," I say to Klorgia. "If you don't pass this, he'll walk out with half the region."

Now, Klorgia was hesitant to believe this. After all, Eaglenest was his longtime friend, right? Now, all I had to do was make Eaglenest follow through on his words.

But it would take something monumental to get Eaglenest to do that. Klorgia would have to do something crazy. Banning someone, probably. Banning me?

If I were banned without good reason, Eaglenest would undoubtedly walk out. And with one fatal blow, I could crush the entire Liberalian government. Weasel my way out, secure myself as Klorgia's sole advisor.

So I had to find a way to get Klorgia to ban me, without actually doing anything wrong. I had to find some way to monumentally piss Klorg off without committing a crime.

And what's a fact that was becoming increasingly prevalent about Klorg?

He can't handle being criticized. He doesn't like being told he's doing something wrong.

Now, an election was rolling around, and I noticed Klorg change his vote a couple times. I know how to make anything look like a grand conspiracy, so I set about doing that. Writing a story about how Klorgia was using his influence to manipulate the vote and unseat strongly pro-Eaglenest Uoool.

And as I made conversations with people, I discovered something even better: Rhomanya and Sircana, two of the candidates running, were the same person. This was a golden opportunity to strike down another member of the Liberalian government! Now, Sircana could deny, so I needed a confession.

I went to Sircana. I explained that I wanted to tell a story about how Klorgia was trying to manipulate the election. And if Sircana could confess, that would help in writing it (may I point out that this makes zero sense, there was no way I could have used that). Sircana did confess. Better yet, as he confessed, he tried to defend himself by ratting out two other people. His opposing candidate, Uoool, was using Cassiliya as a secondary account. And better yet: Klorgia knew about both Sircana and Uoool's crimes and was allowing it.

I literally could've asked for nothing better. I had started out aiming to construct a fragile lie about Klorgia manipulating voters. I had come out with two confessions (I got one from Uoool as well) to real election fraud by Klorgia, Uoool, and Sircana.

I could take out Uoool and Sircana, and get Klorg to ban me, thereby getting Eaglenest (and possibly Aden) to leave the region, all in one ungodly fell swoop.

And that's what I did. I released the factbook. Benain quickly ruled to prevent Sircana from running for office in the future and Uoool from running for one election cycle. Klorg, calling me a liar, banned me. Eaglenest left the region.

I them proceeded to chat with Klorgia, weasel my way out of it, and get back to the region.

Now, it wasn't perfect. Aden was still here, and Uoool was merely damaged, not removed. Now, rather interestingly, through all of this, I maintained the trust of Eaglenest, Aden, and Uoool. And by the conversations I had before coming back, I managed to rewing Klorg's trust.

After all, Eaglenest had threatened to secede, and I had warned Klorgia. And Klorgia had decided I was lying, choosing to trust Eaglenest. And now Eaglenest had followed through on his secession. So clearly, Eaglenest was the lying snake and I was the one who was honestly trying to make the best of a bad situation and help Klorg out. Clearly.

It took little more effort than that to make Eaglenest out to Klorgia as the big bad villain. Suddenly, Klorgia and Eaglenest both thought I was on their side, both talking to me about their anger and feelings toward the other.

I played attempted peacemaker, making vague and unhelpful attempts to de-emotionalize the situation while slowly furthering conflict. I drove Klorgia nearly to the brink, made sure Eaglenest never wanted to return to a Klorgia-owned Liberalia again.

Aden was still there, but his influence was waning, and still ultimately dependent on me (I could have dismissed him as Diplomat at any time). Benain was fully present, but he was quiet, less likely to exercise his power in a damaging way to my ambitions. Uoool was still there, but as Eaglenest's closest ally, his influence over Klorg was virtually gone.

My power was at its height.

And then... I left.

It's a little difficult to explain why. Everything was going perfectly. Klorg was heavily considering leaving the game, I had an honest shot at being his successor, all my major opponents were out of the way.

But I was starting to get the vague sense that something was wrong with me. I knew I was hurting people, and at one point I had a phone call with Klorg, and... I didn't really feel anything. I didn't feel any empathy for him, I didn't feel bad about bringing him near the breaking point.

And tbh, that scared me. That I was destroying people's friendships, virtual and irl, and damaging their mental and physical health, all in the name of increasing my own power in a virtual game.

So I vanished. I briefly tried to start anew with a new account, to be an honest member of the UA, but my identity was quickly determined, so I abandoned it. I left NS for about three months. I was constantly tempted to go back, but I knew my membership in Liberalia was damaging to Liberalia, its members, and myself.

But eventually I got bored. I had moved to Washington State, I was settling into a new school, and I missed the political thrill of Liberalia. So I ran back.

It had been months, so I knew there would be changes.

When I came back, I quickly discovered the new major faces in the region, who would be my key opponents for influence. Most notably, these were Camp, Pi, Aav, and Drowsy. Aden and Benain were still there, of course.

So I took it upon myself to destroy each of these individuals, or to make their power dependent upon my own.

My first ploy was an obvious one: Paint Pi and Aav as dictators over the server. It really wasn't a hard picture to paint. Liberalia used to be very... libertarian in the way the server was governed, and the new structure and actual rules was easy to poke at, especially because some people were already mad about it.

Unfortunately (for me), Klorg was very favorable toward them. It took me all of two days to realize that he wouldn't be taking them down. It also took me all of two days to realize that Klorg's time as leader was waning. I don't know what gave me that impression, exactly. Just something in the overall tone of the region. And the successor, to me, was obvious: Aav.

So I resolved that if I couldn't destroy Aav before they rose to leadership, then I would become their right-hand man as quickly as possible.

Now, I wouldn't say I was necessarily successful at that. Aav is, whether they know it or not, a phenomenal political player. I could never tell whether I was their closest ally or not even important in their plans. But I did what I could: I tried to function as a helpful, useful mod, I conducted espionage on their enemies, I became a citizen of Hartfelden, all of it. Still have no idea how much influence over them I actually held.

As for the other major opponents of mine, Pi kindly left his position as a mod, which removed his threat. Camp took care of himself with his... er, discomforting behavior that got him banned.

I continued to try to keep Klorgia at the brink through this, hoping to make him leave due to the stress of it. I (may have) succeeded with this. That is, he left. I'm not entirely sure if it was because of me or other reasons (or, likely, a combination of factors).

Benain was appointed as his successor (I knew this beforehand, as Klorgia voiced to me in private his decision to make Benain his successor). Benain acted largely based on Klorgia's wishes, which was worrying, since those wishes distinctly involved "Do not let R&S have power." Worse, he appointed Drowsy as Crown Prince. Drowsy was very active in enforcing his wishes, which scared me (I had given him some trouble earlier on in my attempts to remove Aav and Pi). Meanwhile, Aden's anti-monarchist ideas (and anti-mod ones, now that I was an ally to Aav) were becoming a threat to the possibility of me rising to power (after all, if a democracy were actually established, game over for rising to the throne).

If I was going to control Benain and Drowsy, I would need to control the Court. And if I was going to minimize the actual ability to remove the monarchy, I needed to own the Senate and/or the CA, preferably by controlling the anti-monarchists myself.

In conclusion, I needed to quickly create a large anti-monarchist party, led by someone who I could easily manipulate into doing what I needed. If only there was a suitable candidate...

I reached out to Eaglenest, inviting him back to the region. He took care of bringing the rest of the UA. Aden joined up, we had a nice anti-monarchist party.

I took the prerogative to create an amendment disbanding the monarchy (that way no one else would), and then just had to make sure it was delayed. I actually didn't even have to come up with any excuses, because of all the craziness we went through.

Anyway, as this was going on, I made a grab at PM, hoping that maybe I'd get lucky, but I didn't.

Which was fine, since I had really friendly relations at this point with both Aav and Eaglenest, and was thereby able to secure a cabinet spot no matter who won.

Anyway, Benain, as expected, chose a UA candidate for Chief Justice (I was lucky enough that Benain chose Eaglenest). I mostly did Eaglenest's interview for him to keep him from saying anything that might endanger his candidacy (and also to keep Aav from making him look like an idiot, which they nearly did on multiple occasions because Latin).

Things are going well.

Now, Drowsy is becoming an increasingly prevalent threat, and I need to minimize popular support for Aav (after all, if they become too powerful, I've got another Klorg to deal with), so I focus on stoking the already simmering anti-Aav, anti-Drowsy fire. Not difficult, given how much they were already unhappy with them.

And then everything goes crazy.

Benain steps back and hands the throne to Drowsy. Ok, I think, I'll just focus on using my control (via Eaglenest) of the Court in order to limit his power. And then everything goes crazier. Everyone gets angry at Drowsy, Drowsy nearly starts a civil war, Aav is appointed as Crown Prince, Drowsy steps back and leaves the region, Aav becomes Emperor, we refound.

All at once, Aav has risen to the throne (as I predicted), and Drowsy, one of my key opponents, is out of the game.

But more dangerous, Aav is now PM and Emperor. Opposing them is a death wish. And, far more importantly, there's a new question: Who will be Aav's Crown Prince?

Obvious answer: Me.

Or, at least, that's the goal.

I began chatting with Aav and the UA about who the Crown Prince would be. I always pointed out how there were no good options, listing off how Rambo wasn't fit for the spot, Myno wasn't active enough, John was too new, and everyone else was UA. Whenever my name was brought up, I shot it down, pointing out that, as part of the UA and a vehement anti-monarchist, my name wasn't really on the table.

My hope was that, as someone who had been advising Aav and conducting some level of espionage (I'd argue it was less espionage and more just general reporting on the situation) while apparently having no ambition for royalty, I might be picked.

Eaglenest was at this point growing... conscious, a little bit, that some sort of game was being played. He knew some sort of espionage was being conducted on the UA, and tried to pin it to Aden. And LM was realizing very fast exactly what I was doing (btw, kudos to LM for being possibly the brightest person in the region for connecting the dots very fast as to what kind of person I was).

So with all of this I ditched the UA, condemning it for a variety of reasons. I did this with Aden.

Aden and I began planning to launch a PM candidate between us. Originally, we were planning on competing with Aav and Eaglenest, but Eaglenest notified me that, thanks to my words, the UA would not be sending a candidate, leaving the race to likely be between Aav and whoever Aden and I sent.

I once again played the card of being uninterested in the spot and encouraging Aden to run. Aden seemed disinterested and instead encouraged me to run. However, when the UA decided they would support Aden as a compromise candidate, Aden decided he would run.

At this point, everything begins to unravel.

Aav pulls a plot twist on all of us by informing me they are planning an Edict to abolish the monarchy. Given that my entire goal is inheriting the throne, I really don't want this to go through. So, naturally, I turn to the Court.

Eaglenest, while annoyed that I betrayed the UA, was willing to work with me, as he also disagreed with the method of the monarch's abolishment. He agreed that it was unconstitutional, and asked me to provide an explanation as to why. I gave him one, told him to copy-and-paste it. I screenshotted all of this (I'd long since gotten in the habit of photographing every political discussion I had in case I could use it later).

Eaglenest releases the statement. Aav requests a trial. Eaglenest and I agree. Aav requests that the trial be dropped because Eaglenest has a bias. Eaglenest chooses not to.

And this is the point where I realize Eaglenest is at least a hundred miles out of his depth. Because I knew how well Aav knew court trials and how little Eaglenest actually understood the process, and because I wasn't confident in my ability to defeat Aav in a debate, I knew that, if Eaglenest made the trial go forward, Aav would easily win. Now, either Eaglenest would rule for Aav, and basically all my work would be for nothing, or Eaglenest would rule for me, in which case he would look unbelievably corrupt and Aav would tear him apart (and, though Aav would have to pick a Crown Prince, it certainly wouldn't be me).

Trying to think quickly, I review the Edict. Now, the Founder remains as a position though with no legal power except in emergency cases. However, because of how NS works, they maintain mechanical power. Now, the position would only be handed over to someone when Aav retired as Founder. That would probably be months, maybe years down the line. That's a really long wait. But if I somehow maintain my position as a close ally to them, maybe, just maybe, I'd get handed the spot when they leave. And then I could use the mechanical power to fully take over the region, in completion of my original goals.

So my number one priority at this point is maintaining my spot at Aav's side (if I ever held such a spot). I can drop the trial, but that won't be enough. So I resolved to commit one of the crueler acts of my long, winding path. I sent Aav the screenshots, providing testimony to Eaglenest's corruption, and pretending the entire trial had been a ruse to root him out.

Eaglenest and LM left, the Edict passed, and I resolved to play the long game.

And then I left. Mostly because NS was starting to affect my grades again, and then I was on vacation.

It's hard to explain. I keep taking absences from NS, attempting to quit. I realize more and more that I have serious issues of my own I need to work out, and that I'm hurting people and that's not OK.

I used to compare NS to cocaine because I'm stuck on it like a drug. And every time I quit, I feel that pull. "If you don't make it to the top, you've wasted this year and four months for nothing," it says. And I bend to it every time.

Tbh, big dispatches by me explaining "Oh, I have emotional problems," and "Oh, I'm quitting NS!" are kind of commonplace. Camp told me last time that I needed to quit before it became a boy-who-cried-wolf type scenario.

My hope is that, by telling everyone the full story, explaining that every moment, every interaction, every decision, has all been in the service of taking this region over, and explaining the amount of pain and suffering I put people through, that I won't be welcome back, and I won't be able to come back.

That is, by destroying my chance of ever rising to power, I can stop feeling compelled to come back in an attempt to.

And I wish that I could say I feel sorry, or that I wish I hadn't done any of this. But... I dunno. I don't really feel that. Whatever I should be feeling, guilt or whatever, just isn't coming to me.

Anyway, I hope and assume Aav did something about my absence in relation to my government spot. On the chance they haven't, I resign as Minister of Foreign Affairs and recommend Aden for the position.

And though I don't think a criminal code has been passed yet (maybe one has, I dunno), I also confess in full to:
- Treason
- Emotional Manipulation
- Social Manipulation
- Psychological Manipulation
- Espionage
- Fraud
- Incitement
- Insubordination
- Conspiracy to Blackmail

And any and all other charges that can be found in my testimony above.

Hopefully I won't be coming back. And if I do, please do not fall for any attempt at looking for forgiveness.

Also, please, someone, make a copy of this factbook in case I try to delete it later.

Au revoir. I'm going to go try to get a therapist or something.

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Au revoir.

I feel dumb. I recognized that you were always in the center of trouble but dismissed it because I felt like you were my friend. Hindsight is 20/20 after all and now everything makes sense, I’m not mad and I thank you for making things clear but you have lost my trust, I want to see the best in people but I can’t ignore this. Have a good life

Rebels and Saints wrote:
Heavy sigh.

Where to begin...

Let's go with the beginning, I guess.

Note: Some of the timing here is a little scrambled, exact order of events is difficult to remember.

As long as I can remember, I've had a really strange talent for gaining peoples' trust, or at least something close to it. Y'know, I have a really odd tendency to always be everyone's right-hand guy. Managing and assisting in peoples' campaigns, drafting needed documents, aiding in leadership, advising people, being a confidante for peoples' secrets. All that nonsense.

I don't really know why or how. Like, I can lie well enough, but that's based on tons of study of how to do that, and even then I don't pull it off well. I've never been a natural liar.

Yet constantly people end up allowing me to help them, be their assistant, second-in-command, friend, etc.

I'm just a little bit ashamed to say I abuse that. A lot.

I tend to be a very ambitious person. I have lofty goals and aspirations, and I tend to be willing to do whatever I have to to attain them. In the case of Liberalia, it took me a month's time to know exactly what I wanted: the throne. Not that there was a throne at the time, but the equivalent. I wanted to succeed Klorgia.

Basically everything I've ever done in Liberalia has been in service of that goal. The plan was simple:

First, I become Klorgia's friend. Second, become the friend of the individuals who had influence over him. Third, use my newfound influence to destroy each and every one of those individuals by making them look like traitors or by inciting conflict between them and Klorgia. Fourth, secure in a legal fashion my position as Klorgia's heir. Fifth, destroy Klorgia.

Obviously this plan has gone awry, but I'll go through it anyway.

The first step was extremely simple. Klorgia was a trusting person. And I was a new, ambitious, energetic, and generally fun (I like to think, anyway) member of the region. And also I was a major fan of a musical, which complemented nicely with Klorgia's theatrical talents and interests. It took just a little while (plus Pizza's resignation as Consulate), for Klorgia to appoint me as acting Diplomat.

Now, that might have been enough. But I find the best way to secure someone's friendship and to prove your loyalty is to choose their interests over your own. And Klorgia provided me with a perfect opportunity during my race against Aden.

See, Klorg voted for Aden. During my early start as Diplomat, I proposed a plan which focused on a general embassy wipe, something I still think was a good idea. Klorgia considered embassies to be a method of recruitment, and wanted to maintain them. Since he didn't like my foreign policy ideas, he supported Aden.

Seeing an opportunity, I began preaching that Klorgia should have more power over the government, and that I would only support his candidate, and that I therefore planned to drop out of the race. Surprise, surprise, by appealing to Klorgia's God complex, I won his vote. His support tied up the race.

The race was resolved by a... well, I've often said it was rigged, but saying that is mostly meant to make Klorg look bad. I don't believe it was rigged as much as it had a glaringly obvious bias that Klorg didn't consider. Either way, I easily won.

Now, step two was to secure the friendship of individuals who held influence in the government. I had to start doing this while I secured my relationship with Klorg. Now, I find that the best way to gain influence over members of government is to create members of government over which you already have influence. There's a quote: "When your enemies defy you, you must serve them steel and fire. When they go to their knees, however, you must help them back to their feet."

Basically, destroy your enemy, and then help them back up, but keep their success dependent upon yourself. That way, you will always hold influence over them.

Knowing all this, I turned to the candidate I had defeated, Aden, and offered him the position of Diplomat.

All this meant that I had defeated Aden, yet shown him mercy and aided him in attaining the second best position. That gave me influence over him, which increased my influence over the government.

Now, back to Klorg. I continued to work to gain influence over him by assisting in foreign affairs and proving my worth as Consulate. I slowly became a friend to him. Meanwhile, I did the same with other key Liberalians: Eaglenest, Aden, Benain, Uoool. I focused on achieving friendship or at least influence over all of them.

Steps one and two? Done. Easy. Step three is where things get crazy.

See, I planned to incite conflict between these influential individuals and Klorgia. But it was supposed to be on my timeline, when I was ready.

And then shìt started hitting the fan before I could get anywhere near ready.

I knew Eaglenest was the most likely candidate for conflict with Klorgia. He was sort of a good mirror to me: Ambitious in a healthy way, passionate about the success of himself and the region. Obviously he would come into conflict with Klorgia's iron grip on power.

But I meant for me to incite that conflict and control it, not for it to start on its own with no control over any of it.

Eaglenest and Klorgia got into a fight over the roleplay. And then Klorgia made himself look like an asshole by passing a set of rp rules which literally gave him the power to rule on all rp disputes at any time.

And Klorgia, I know that this whole factbook is about how I've been the villain this whole time and how you've mostly not been at fault, but honest opinion: That set of rules was terrible. You like to think you're an unbiased leader, but you rule in your own favor every time. You would've just overruled Eaglenest every time, so when I said the Freedom Bill was coming in some form or another, that's accurate, and that rule set was the moment when you proved just how willing you were to give yourself unlimited power.

Anyway, back to the story.

So, things were getting heated, and I saw a golden opportunity. I create a new Discord server, a private project, where I specifically, deliberately appointed Eaglenest as my chief mod and left Klorgia without a spot.

Now, anyone knows that Klorgia really likes being in charge of things. So, true to form, he requests a position as a mod. I lead him down a conversation to get him to say things that make him sound like he thinks he's owed a spot (he didn't think this, by the way, I spun the conversation to sound like that).

I took screenshots of all of it. Appoint him as a mod. Naturally, Eaglenest, having already existing disputes with Klorgia, questions why I appointed Klorg as a mod. I tell him of the conversation, drop a couple screenshots, play the card of "Oh, he's the founder of the region and I don't feel comfortable disobeying him because he's basically a God in Liberalia."

Eaglenest was already upset with Klorg. He already had issues with him. But playing to that allowed me to unlock that anger a little bit. To get him to go on about how mad he was, and to express his desire for a democracy. And by playing along, I gave him what he needed: an ally. Someone who he thought understands and sympathized with his anger toward Klorg.

So I wrote a bill. A bill that would be treasonous to support. A bill that certain individuals would love to put their name on. Eaglenest signed on. I got the entire Liberalian government to sign on in addition.

I knew by then my talent for weaseling my way out of trouble, for gaining opponents' trust after stabbing them in the back. I knew that I could get out of the bonfire that was about to be the Liberalian government.

But I had constructed what was, in affect, a confession to treason and disloyalty toward Klorg, and I had gotten it signed by the entire government. Step three? Ready to fire.

I announced with flourish the bill, and let the chaos rise. Immediately, shots are fired, the private discussions between government members become a warzone.

And at this point, Eaglenest just starts pouring out gold. Eaglenest doesn't have a filter, he says what he believes, and he's passionate enough to let his mouth move faster than his head. And in one of those moments, he proposes secession from Liberalia.

And goddamnìt, I could've sung with joy. "Eaglenest is organizing secession," I say to Klorgia. "If you don't pass this, he'll walk out with half the region."

Now, Klorgia was hesitant to believe this. After all, Eaglenest was his longtime friend, right? Now, all I had to do was make Eaglenest follow through on his words.

But it would take something monumental to get Eaglenest to do that. Klorgia would have to do something crazy. Banning someone, probably. Banning me?

If I were banned without good reason, Eaglenest would undoubtedly walk out. And with one fatal blow, I could crush the entire Liberalian government. Weasel my way out, secure myself as Klorgia's sole advisor.

So I had to find a way to get Klorgia to ban me, without actually doing anything wrong. I had to find some way to monumentally piss Klorg off without committing a crime.

And what's a fact that was becoming increasingly prevalent about Klorg?

He can't handle being criticized. He doesn't like being told he's doing something wrong.

Now, an election was rolling around, and I noticed Klorg change his vote a couple times. I know how to make anything look like a grand conspiracy, so I set about doing that. Writing a story about how Klorgia was using his influence to manipulate the vote and unseat strongly pro-Eaglenest Uoool.

And as I made conversations with people, I discovered something even better: Rhomanya and Sircana, two of the candidates running, were the same person. This was a golden opportunity to strike down another member of the Liberalian government! Now, Sircana could deny, so I needed a confession.

I went to Sircana. I explained that I wanted to tell a story about how Klorgia was trying to manipulate the election. And if Sircana could confess, that would help in writing it (may I point out that this makes zero sense, there was no way I could have used that). Sircana did confess. Better yet, as he confessed, he tried to defend himself by ratting out two other people. His opposing candidate, Uoool, was using Cassiliya as a secondary account. And better yet: Klorgia knew about both Sircana and Uoool's crimes and was allowing it.

I literally could've asked for nothing better. I had started out aiming to construct a fragile lie about Klorgia manipulating voters. I had come out with two confessions (I got one from Uoool as well) to real election fraud by Klorgia, Uoool, and Sircana.

I could take out Uoool and Sircana, and get Klorg to ban me, thereby getting Eaglenest (and possibly Aden) to leave the region, all in one ungodly fell swoop.

And that's what I did. I released the factbook. Benain quickly ruled to prevent Sircana from running for office in the future and Uoool from running for one election cycle. Klorg, calling me a liar, banned me. Eaglenest left the region.

I them proceeded to chat with Klorgia, weasel my way out of it, and get back to the region.

Now, it wasn't perfect. Aden was still here, and Uoool was merely damaged, not removed. Now, rather interestingly, through all of this, I maintained the trust of Eaglenest, Aden, and Uoool. And by the conversations I had before coming back, I managed to rewing Klorg's trust.

After all, Eaglenest had threatened to secede, and I had warned Klorgia. And Klorgia had decided I was lying, choosing to trust Eaglenest. And now Eaglenest had followed through on his secession. So clearly, Eaglenest was the lying snake and I was the one who was honestly trying to make the best of a bad situation and help Klorg out. Clearly.

It took little more effort than that to make Eaglenest out to Klorgia as the big bad villain. Suddenly, Klorgia and Eaglenest both thought I was on their side, both talking to me about their anger and feelings toward the other.

I played attempted peacemaker, making vague and unhelpful attempts to de-emotionalize the situation while slowly furthering conflict. I drove Klorgia nearly to the brink, made sure Eaglenest never wanted to return to a Klorgia-owned Liberalia again.

Aden was still there, but his influence was waning, and still ultimately dependent on me (I could have dismissed him as Diplomat at any time). Benain was fully present, but he was quiet, less likely to exercise his power in a damaging way to my ambitions. Uoool was still there, but as Eaglenest's closest ally, his influence over Klorg was virtually gone.

My power was at its height.

And then... I left.

It's a little difficult to explain why. Everything was going perfectly. Klorg was heavily considering leaving the game, I had an honest shot at being his successor, all my major opponents were out of the way.

But I was starting to get the vague sense that something was wrong with me. I knew I was hurting people, and at one point I had a phone call with Klorg, and... I didn't really feel anything. I didn't feel any empathy for him, I didn't feel bad about bringing him near the breaking point.

And tbh, that scared me. That I was destroying people's friendships, virtual and irl, and damaging their mental and physical health, all in the name of increasing my own power in a virtual game.

So I vanished. I briefly tried to start anew with a new account, to be an honest member of the UA, but my identity was quickly determined, so I abandoned it. I left NS for about three months. I was constantly tempted to go back, but I knew my membership in Liberalia was damaging to Liberalia, its members, and myself.

But eventually I got bored. I had moved to Washington State, I was settling into a new school, and I missed the political thrill of Liberalia. So I ran back.

It had been months, so I knew there would be changes.

When I came back, I quickly discovered the new major faces in the region, who would be my key opponents for influence. Most notably, these were Camp, Pi, Aav, and Drowsy. Aden and Benain were still there, of course.

So I took it upon myself to destroy each of these individuals, or to make their power dependent upon my own.

My first ploy was an obvious one: Paint Pi and Aav as dictators over the server. It really wasn't a hard picture to paint. Liberalia used to be very... libertarian in the way the server was governed, and the new structure and actual rules was easy to poke at, especially because some people were already mad about it.

Unfortunately (for me), Klorg was very favorable toward them. It took me all of two days to realize that he wouldn't be taking them down. It also took me all of two days to realize that Klorg's time as leader was waning. I don't know what gave me that impression, exactly. Just something in the overall tone of the region. And the successor, to me, was obvious: Aav.

So I resolved that if I couldn't destroy Aav before they rose to leadership, then I would become their right-hand man as quickly as possible.

Now, I wouldn't say I was necessarily successful at that. Aav is, whether they know it or not, a phenomenal political player. I could never tell whether I was their closest ally or not even important in their plans. But I did what I could: I tried to function as a helpful, useful mod, I conducted espionage on their enemies, I became a citizen of Hartfelden, all of it. Still have no idea how much influence over them I actually held.

As for the other major opponents of mine, Pi kindly left his position as a mod, which removed his threat. Camp took care of himself with his... er, discomforting behavior that got him banned.

I continued to try to keep Klorgia at the brink through this, hoping to make him leave due to the stress of it. I (may have) succeeded with this. That is, he left. I'm not entirely sure if it was because of me or other reasons (or, likely, a combination of factors).

Benain was appointed as his successor (I knew this beforehand, as Klorgia voiced to me in private his decision to make Benain his successor). Benain acted largely based on Klorgia's wishes, which was worrying, since those wishes distinctly involved "Do not let R&S have power." Worse, he appointed Drowsy as Crown Prince. Drowsy was very active in enforcing his wishes, which scared me (I had given him some trouble earlier on in my attempts to remove Aav and Pi). Meanwhile, Aden's anti-monarchist ideas (and anti-mod ones, now that I was an ally to Aav) were becoming a threat to the possibility of me rising to power (after all, if a democracy were actually established, game over for rising to the throne).

If I was going to control Benain and Drowsy, I would need to control the Court. And if I was going to minimize the actual ability to remove the monarchy, I needed to own the Senate and/or the CA, preferably by controlling the anti-monarchists myself.

In conclusion, I needed to quickly create a large anti-monarchist party, led by someone who I could easily manipulate into doing what I needed. If only there was a suitable candidate...

I reached out to Eaglenest, inviting him back to the region. He took care of bringing the rest of the UA. Aden joined up, we had a nice anti-monarchist party.

I took the prerogative to create an amendment disbanding the monarchy (that way no one else would), and then just had to make sure it was delayed. I actually didn't even have to come up with any excuses, because of all the craziness we went through.

Anyway, as this was going on, I made a grab at PM, hoping that maybe I'd get lucky, but I didn't.

Which was fine, since I had really friendly relations at this point with both Aav and Eaglenest, and was thereby able to secure a cabinet spot no matter who won.

Anyway, Benain, as expected, chose a UA candidate for Chief Justice (I was lucky enough that Benain chose Eaglenest). I mostly did Eaglenest's interview for him to keep him from saying anything that might endanger his candidacy (and also to keep Aav from making him look like an idiot, which they nearly did on multiple occasions because Latin).

Things are going well.

Now, Drowsy is becoming an increasingly prevalent threat, and I need to minimize popular support for Aav (after all, if they become too powerful, I've got another Klorg to deal with), so I focus on stoking the already simmering anti-Aav, anti-Drowsy fire. Not difficult, given how much they were already unhappy with them.

And then everything goes crazy.

Benain steps back and hands the throne to Drowsy. Ok, I think, I'll just focus on using my control (via Eaglenest) of the Court in order to limit his power. And then everything goes crazier. Everyone gets angry at Drowsy, Drowsy nearly starts a civil war, Aav is appointed as Crown Prince, Drowsy steps back and leaves the region, Aav becomes Emperor, we refound.

All at once, Aav has risen to the throne (as I predicted), and Drowsy, one of my key opponents, is out of the game.

But more dangerous, Aav is now PM and Emperor. Opposing them is a death wish. And, far more importantly, there's a new question: Who will be Aav's Crown Prince?

Obvious answer: Me.

Or, at least, that's the goal.

I began chatting with Aav and the UA about who the Crown Prince would be. I always pointed out how there were no good options, listing off how Rambo wasn't fit for the spot, Myno wasn't active enough, John was too new, and everyone else was UA. Whenever my name was brought up, I shot it down, pointing out that, as part of the UA and a vehement anti-monarchist, my name wasn't really on the table.

My hope was that, as someone who had been advising Aav and conducting some level of espionage (I'd argue it was less espionage and more just general reporting on the situation) while apparently having no ambition for royalty, I might be picked.

Eaglenest was at this point growing... conscious, a little bit, that some sort of game was being played. He knew some sort of espionage was being conducted on the UA, and tried to pin it to Aden. And LM was realizing very fast exactly what I was doing (btw, kudos to LM for being possibly the brightest person in the region for connecting the dots very fast as to what kind of person I was).

So with all of this I ditched the UA, condemning it for a variety of reasons. I did this with Aden.

Aden and I began planning to launch a PM candidate between us. Originally, we were planning on competing with Aav and Eaglenest, but Eaglenest notified me that, thanks to my words, the UA would not be sending a candidate, leaving the race to likely be between Aav and whoever Aden and I sent.

I once again played the card of being uninterested in the spot and encouraging Aden to run. Aden seemed disinterested and instead encouraged me to run. However, when the UA decided they would support Aden as a compromise candidate, Aden decided he would run.

At this point, everything begins to unravel.

Aav pulls a plot twist on all of us by informing me they are planning an Edict to abolish the monarchy. Given that my entire goal is inheriting the throne, I really don't want this to go through. So, naturally, I turn to the Court.

Eaglenest, while annoyed that I betrayed the UA, was willing to work with me, as he also disagreed with the method of the monarch's abolishment. He agreed that it was unconstitutional, and asked me to provide an explanation as to why. I gave him one, told him to copy-and-paste it. I screenshotted all of this (I'd long since gotten in the habit of photographing every political discussion I had in case I could use it later).

Eaglenest releases the statement. Aav requests a trial. Eaglenest and I agree. Aav requests that the trial be dropped because Eaglenest has a bias. Eaglenest chooses not to.

And this is the point where I realize Eaglenest is at least a hundred miles out of his depth. Because I knew how well Aav knew court trials and how little Eaglenest actually understood the process, and because I wasn't confident in my ability to defeat Aav in a debate, I knew that, if Eaglenest made the trial go forward, Aav would easily win. Now, either Eaglenest would rule for Aav, and basically all my work would be for nothing, or Eaglenest would rule for me, in which case he would look unbelievably corrupt and Aav would tear him apart (and, though Aav would have to pick a Crown Prince, it certainly wouldn't be me).

Trying to think quickly, I review the Edict. Now, the Founder remains as a position though with no legal power except in emergency cases. However, because of how NS works, they maintain mechanical power. Now, the position would only be handed over to someone when Aav retired as Founder. That would probably be months, maybe years down the line. That's a really long wait. But if I somehow maintain my position as a close ally to them, maybe, just maybe, I'd get handed the spot when they leave. And then I could use the mechanical power to fully take over the region, in completion of my original goals.

So my number one priority at this point is maintaining my spot at Aav's side (if I ever held such a spot). I can drop the trial, but that won't be enough. So I resolved to commit one of the crueler acts of my long, winding path. I sent Aav the screenshots, providing testimony to Eaglenest's corruption, and pretending the entire trial had been a ruse to root him out.

Eaglenest and LM left, the Edict passed, and I resolved to play the long game.

And then I left. Mostly because NS was starting to affect my grades again, and then I was on vacation.

It's hard to explain. I keep taking absences from NS, attempting to quit. I realize more and more that I have serious issues of my own I need to work out, and that I'm hurting people and that's not OK.

I used to compare NS to cocaine because I'm stuck on it like a drug. And every time I quit, I feel that pull. "If you don't make it to the top, you've wasted this year and four months for nothing," it says. And I bend to it every time.

Tbh, big dispatches by me explaining "Oh, I have emotional problems," and "Oh, I'm quitting NS!" are kind of commonplace. Camp told me last time that I needed to quit before it became a boy-who-cried-wolf type scenario.

My hope is that, by telling everyone the full story, explaining that every moment, every interaction, every decision, has all been in the service of taking this region over, and explaining the amount of pain and suffering I put people through, that I won't be welcome back, and I won't be able to come back.

That is, by destroying my chance of ever rising to power, I can stop feeling compelled to come back in an attempt to.

And I wish that I could say I feel sorry, or that I wish I hadn't done any of this. But... I dunno. I don't really feel that. Whatever I should be feeling, guilt or whatever, just isn't coming to me.

Anyway, I hope and assume Aav did something about my absence in relation to my government spot. On the chance they haven't, I resign as Minister of Foreign Affairs and recommend Aden for the position.

And though I don't think a criminal code has been passed yet (maybe one has, I dunno), I also confess in full to:
- Treason
- Emotional Manipulation
- Social Manipulation
- Psychological Manipulation
- Espionage
- Fraud
- Incitement
- Insubordination
- Conspiracy to Blackmail

And any and all other charges that can be found in my testimony above.

Hopefully I won't be coming back. And if I do, please do not fall for any attempt at looking for forgiveness.

Also, please, someone, make a copy of this factbook in case I try to delete it later.

Au revoir. I'm going to go try to get a therapist or something.

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Au revoir.

I don't know what to say. This is something I thought would never happen although I have done shady things in my NS past but I would have never thought you could make a conspiracy this big. I hope you find peace and help but I don't think I can trust you anymore.

Rebels and Saints wrote:
Heavy sigh.

Where to begin...

Let's go with the beginning, I guess.

Note: Some of the timing here is a little scrambled, exact order of events is difficult to remember.

As long as I can remember, I've had a really strange talent for gaining peoples' trust, or at least something close to it. Y'know, I have a really odd tendency to always be everyone's right-hand guy. Managing and assisting in peoples' campaigns, drafting needed documents, aiding in leadership, advising people, being a confidante for peoples' secrets. All that nonsense.

I don't really know why or how. Like, I can lie well enough, but that's based on tons of study of how to do that, and even then I don't pull it off well. I've never been a natural liar.

Yet constantly people end up allowing me to help them, be their assistant, second-in-command, friend, etc.

I'm just a little bit ashamed to say I abuse that. A lot.

I tend to be a very ambitious person. I have lofty goals and aspirations, and I tend to be willing to do whatever I have to to attain them. In the case of Liberalia, it took me a month's time to know exactly what I wanted: the throne. Not that there was a throne at the time, but the equivalent. I wanted to succeed Klorgia.

Basically everything I've ever done in Liberalia has been in service of that goal. The plan was simple:

First, I become Klorgia's friend. Second, become the friend of the individuals who had influence over him. Third, use my newfound influence to destroy each and every one of those individuals by making them look like traitors or by inciting conflict between them and Klorgia. Fourth, secure in a legal fashion my position as Klorgia's heir. Fifth, destroy Klorgia.

Obviously this plan has gone awry, but I'll go through it anyway.

The first step was extremely simple. Klorgia was a trusting person. And I was a new, ambitious, energetic, and generally fun (I like to think, anyway) member of the region. And also I was a major fan of a musical, which complemented nicely with Klorgia's theatrical talents and interests. It took just a little while (plus Pizza's resignation as Consulate), for Klorgia to appoint me as acting Diplomat.

Now, that might have been enough. But I find the best way to secure someone's friendship and to prove your loyalty is to choose their interests over your own. And Klorgia provided me with a perfect opportunity during my race against Aden.

See, Klorg voted for Aden. During my early start as Diplomat, I proposed a plan which focused on a general embassy wipe, something I still think was a good idea. Klorgia considered embassies to be a method of recruitment, and wanted to maintain them. Since he didn't like my foreign policy ideas, he supported Aden.

Seeing an opportunity, I began preaching that Klorgia should have more power over the government, and that I would only support his candidate, and that I therefore planned to drop out of the race. Surprise, surprise, by appealing to Klorgia's God complex, I won his vote. His support tied up the race.

The race was resolved by a... well, I've often said it was rigged, but saying that is mostly meant to make Klorg look bad. I don't believe it was rigged as much as it had a glaringly obvious bias that Klorg didn't consider. Either way, I easily won.

Now, step two was to secure the friendship of individuals who held influence in the government. I had to start doing this while I secured my relationship with Klorg. Now, I find that the best way to gain influence over members of government is to create members of government over which you already have influence. There's a quote: "When your enemies defy you, you must serve them steel and fire. When they go to their knees, however, you must help them back to their feet."

Basically, destroy your enemy, and then help them back up, but keep their success dependent upon yourself. That way, you will always hold influence over them.

Knowing all this, I turned to the candidate I had defeated, Aden, and offered him the position of Diplomat.

All this meant that I had defeated Aden, yet shown him mercy and aided him in attaining the second best position. That gave me influence over him, which increased my influence over the government.

Now, back to Klorg. I continued to work to gain influence over him by assisting in foreign affairs and proving my worth as Consulate. I slowly became a friend to him. Meanwhile, I did the same with other key Liberalians: Eaglenest, Aden, Benain, Uoool. I focused on achieving friendship or at least influence over all of them.

Steps one and two? Done. Easy. Step three is where things get crazy.

See, I planned to incite conflict between these influential individuals and Klorgia. But it was supposed to be on my timeline, when I was ready.

And then shìt started hitting the fan before I could get anywhere near ready.

I knew Eaglenest was the most likely candidate for conflict with Klorgia. He was sort of a good mirror to me: Ambitious in a healthy way, passionate about the success of himself and the region. Obviously he would come into conflict with Klorgia's iron grip on power.

But I meant for me to incite that conflict and control it, not for it to start on its own with no control over any of it.

Eaglenest and Klorgia got into a fight over the roleplay. And then Klorgia made himself look like an asshole by passing a set of rp rules which literally gave him the power to rule on all rp disputes at any time.

And Klorgia, I know that this whole factbook is about how I've been the villain this whole time and how you've mostly not been at fault, but honest opinion: That set of rules was terrible. You like to think you're an unbiased leader, but you rule in your own favor every time. You would've just overruled Eaglenest every time, so when I said the Freedom Bill was coming in some form or another, that's accurate, and that rule set was the moment when you proved just how willing you were to give yourself unlimited power.

Anyway, back to the story.

So, things were getting heated, and I saw a golden opportunity. I create a new Discord server, a private project, where I specifically, deliberately appointed Eaglenest as my chief mod and left Klorgia without a spot.

Now, anyone knows that Klorgia really likes being in charge of things. So, true to form, he requests a position as a mod. I lead him down a conversation to get him to say things that make him sound like he thinks he's owed a spot (he didn't think this, by the way, I spun the conversation to sound like that).

I took screenshots of all of it. Appoint him as a mod. Naturally, Eaglenest, having already existing disputes with Klorgia, questions why I appointed Klorg as a mod. I tell him of the conversation, drop a couple screenshots, play the card of "Oh, he's the founder of the region and I don't feel comfortable disobeying him because he's basically a God in Liberalia."

Eaglenest was already upset with Klorg. He already had issues with him. But playing to that allowed me to unlock that anger a little bit. To get him to go on about how mad he was, and to express his desire for a democracy. And by playing along, I gave him what he needed: an ally. Someone who he thought understands and sympathized with his anger toward Klorg.

So I wrote a bill. A bill that would be treasonous to support. A bill that certain individuals would love to put their name on. Eaglenest signed on. I got the entire Liberalian government to sign on in addition.

I knew by then my talent for weaseling my way out of trouble, for gaining opponents' trust after stabbing them in the back. I knew that I could get out of the bonfire that was about to be the Liberalian government.

But I had constructed what was, in affect, a confession to treason and disloyalty toward Klorg, and I had gotten it signed by the entire government. Step three? Ready to fire.

I announced with flourish the bill, and let the chaos rise. Immediately, shots are fired, the private discussions between government members become a warzone.

And at this point, Eaglenest just starts pouring out gold. Eaglenest doesn't have a filter, he says what he believes, and he's passionate enough to let his mouth move faster than his head. And in one of those moments, he proposes secession from Liberalia.

And goddamnìt, I could've sung with joy. "Eaglenest is organizing secession," I say to Klorgia. "If you don't pass this, he'll walk out with half the region."

Now, Klorgia was hesitant to believe this. After all, Eaglenest was his longtime friend, right? Now, all I had to do was make Eaglenest follow through on his words.

But it would take something monumental to get Eaglenest to do that. Klorgia would have to do something crazy. Banning someone, probably. Banning me?

If I were banned without good reason, Eaglenest would undoubtedly walk out. And with one fatal blow, I could crush the entire Liberalian government. Weasel my way out, secure myself as Klorgia's sole advisor.

So I had to find a way to get Klorgia to ban me, without actually doing anything wrong. I had to find some way to monumentally piss Klorg off without committing a crime.

And what's a fact that was becoming increasingly prevalent about Klorg?

He can't handle being criticized. He doesn't like being told he's doing something wrong.

Now, an election was rolling around, and I noticed Klorg change his vote a couple times. I know how to make anything look like a grand conspiracy, so I set about doing that. Writing a story about how Klorgia was using his influence to manipulate the vote and unseat strongly pro-Eaglenest Uoool.

And as I made conversations with people, I discovered something even better: Rhomanya and Sircana, two of the candidates running, were the same person. This was a golden opportunity to strike down another member of the Liberalian government! Now, Sircana could deny, so I needed a confession.

I went to Sircana. I explained that I wanted to tell a story about how Klorgia was trying to manipulate the election. And if Sircana could confess, that would help in writing it (may I point out that this makes zero sense, there was no way I could have used that). Sircana did confess. Better yet, as he confessed, he tried to defend himself by ratting out two other people. His opposing candidate, Uoool, was using Cassiliya as a secondary account. And better yet: Klorgia knew about both Sircana and Uoool's crimes and was allowing it.

I literally could've asked for nothing better. I had started out aiming to construct a fragile lie about Klorgia manipulating voters. I had come out with two confessions (I got one from Uoool as well) to real election fraud by Klorgia, Uoool, and Sircana.

I could take out Uoool and Sircana, and get Klorg to ban me, thereby getting Eaglenest (and possibly Aden) to leave the region, all in one ungodly fell swoop.

And that's what I did. I released the factbook. Benain quickly ruled to prevent Sircana from running for office in the future and Uoool from running for one election cycle. Klorg, calling me a liar, banned me. Eaglenest left the region.

I them proceeded to chat with Klorgia, weasel my way out of it, and get back to the region.

Now, it wasn't perfect. Aden was still here, and Uoool was merely damaged, not removed. Now, rather interestingly, through all of this, I maintained the trust of Eaglenest, Aden, and Uoool. And by the conversations I had before coming back, I managed to rewing Klorg's trust.

After all, Eaglenest had threatened to secede, and I had warned Klorgia. And Klorgia had decided I was lying, choosing to trust Eaglenest. And now Eaglenest had followed through on his secession. So clearly, Eaglenest was the lying snake and I was the one who was honestly trying to make the best of a bad situation and help Klorg out. Clearly.

It took little more effort than that to make Eaglenest out to Klorgia as the big bad villain. Suddenly, Klorgia and Eaglenest both thought I was on their side, both talking to me about their anger and feelings toward the other.

I played attempted peacemaker, making vague and unhelpful attempts to de-emotionalize the situation while slowly furthering conflict. I drove Klorgia nearly to the brink, made sure Eaglenest never wanted to return to a Klorgia-owned Liberalia again.

Aden was still there, but his influence was waning, and still ultimately dependent on me (I could have dismissed him as Diplomat at any time). Benain was fully present, but he was quiet, less likely to exercise his power in a damaging way to my ambitions. Uoool was still there, but as Eaglenest's closest ally, his influence over Klorg was virtually gone.

My power was at its height.

And then... I left.

It's a little difficult to explain why. Everything was going perfectly. Klorg was heavily considering leaving the game, I had an honest shot at being his successor, all my major opponents were out of the way.

But I was starting to get the vague sense that something was wrong with me. I knew I was hurting people, and at one point I had a phone call with Klorg, and... I didn't really feel anything. I didn't feel any empathy for him, I didn't feel bad about bringing him near the breaking point.

And tbh, that scared me. That I was destroying people's friendships, virtual and irl, and damaging their mental and physical health, all in the name of increasing my own power in a virtual game.

So I vanished. I briefly tried to start anew with a new account, to be an honest member of the UA, but my identity was quickly determined, so I abandoned it. I left NS for about three months. I was constantly tempted to go back, but I knew my membership in Liberalia was damaging to Liberalia, its members, and myself.

But eventually I got bored. I had moved to Washington State, I was settling into a new school, and I missed the political thrill of Liberalia. So I ran back.

It had been months, so I knew there would be changes.

When I came back, I quickly discovered the new major faces in the region, who would be my key opponents for influence. Most notably, these were Camp, Pi, Aav, and Drowsy. Aden and Benain were still there, of course.

So I took it upon myself to destroy each of these individuals, or to make their power dependent upon my own.

My first ploy was an obvious one: Paint Pi and Aav as dictators over the server. It really wasn't a hard picture to paint. Liberalia used to be very... libertarian in the way the server was governed, and the new structure and actual rules was easy to poke at, especially because some people were already mad about it.

Unfortunately (for me), Klorg was very favorable toward them. It took me all of two days to realize that he wouldn't be taking them down. It also took me all of two days to realize that Klorg's time as leader was waning. I don't know what gave me that impression, exactly. Just something in the overall tone of the region. And the successor, to me, was obvious: Aav.

So I resolved that if I couldn't destroy Aav before they rose to leadership, then I would become their right-hand man as quickly as possible.

Now, I wouldn't say I was necessarily successful at that. Aav is, whether they know it or not, a phenomenal political player. I could never tell whether I was their closest ally or not even important in their plans. But I did what I could: I tried to function as a helpful, useful mod, I conducted espionage on their enemies, I became a citizen of Hartfelden, all of it. Still have no idea how much influence over them I actually held.

As for the other major opponents of mine, Pi kindly left his position as a mod, which removed his threat. Camp took care of himself with his... er, discomforting behavior that got him banned.

I continued to try to keep Klorgia at the brink through this, hoping to make him leave due to the stress of it. I (may have) succeeded with this. That is, he left. I'm not entirely sure if it was because of me or other reasons (or, likely, a combination of factors).

Benain was appointed as his successor (I knew this beforehand, as Klorgia voiced to me in private his decision to make Benain his successor). Benain acted largely based on Klorgia's wishes, which was worrying, since those wishes distinctly involved "Do not let R&S have power." Worse, he appointed Drowsy as Crown Prince. Drowsy was very active in enforcing his wishes, which scared me (I had given him some trouble earlier on in my attempts to remove Aav and Pi). Meanwhile, Aden's anti-monarchist ideas (and anti-mod ones, now that I was an ally to Aav) were becoming a threat to the possibility of me rising to power (after all, if a democracy were actually established, game over for rising to the throne).

If I was going to control Benain and Drowsy, I would need to control the Court. And if I was going to minimize the actual ability to remove the monarchy, I needed to own the Senate and/or the CA, preferably by controlling the anti-monarchists myself.

In conclusion, I needed to quickly create a large anti-monarchist party, led by someone who I could easily manipulate into doing what I needed. If only there was a suitable candidate...

I reached out to Eaglenest, inviting him back to the region. He took care of bringing the rest of the UA. Aden joined up, we had a nice anti-monarchist party.

I took the prerogative to create an amendment disbanding the monarchy (that way no one else would), and then just had to make sure it was delayed. I actually didn't even have to come up with any excuses, because of all the craziness we went through.

Anyway, as this was going on, I made a grab at PM, hoping that maybe I'd get lucky, but I didn't.

Which was fine, since I had really friendly relations at this point with both Aav and Eaglenest, and was thereby able to secure a cabinet spot no matter who won.

Anyway, Benain, as expected, chose a UA candidate for Chief Justice (I was lucky enough that Benain chose Eaglenest). I mostly did Eaglenest's interview for him to keep him from saying anything that might endanger his candidacy (and also to keep Aav from making him look like an idiot, which they nearly did on multiple occasions because Latin).

Things are going well.

Now, Drowsy is becoming an increasingly prevalent threat, and I need to minimize popular support for Aav (after all, if they become too powerful, I've got another Klorg to deal with), so I focus on stoking the already simmering anti-Aav, anti-Drowsy fire. Not difficult, given how much they were already unhappy with them.

And then everything goes crazy.

Benain steps back and hands the throne to Drowsy. Ok, I think, I'll just focus on using my control (via Eaglenest) of the Court in order to limit his power. And then everything goes crazier. Everyone gets angry at Drowsy, Drowsy nearly starts a civil war, Aav is appointed as Crown Prince, Drowsy steps back and leaves the region, Aav becomes Emperor, we refound.

All at once, Aav has risen to the throne (as I predicted), and Drowsy, one of my key opponents, is out of the game.

But more dangerous, Aav is now PM and Emperor. Opposing them is a death wish. And, far more importantly, there's a new question: Who will be Aav's Crown Prince?

Obvious answer: Me.

Or, at least, that's the goal.

I began chatting with Aav and the UA about who the Crown Prince would be. I always pointed out how there were no good options, listing off how Rambo wasn't fit for the spot, Myno wasn't active enough, John was too new, and everyone else was UA. Whenever my name was brought up, I shot it down, pointing out that, as part of the UA and a vehement anti-monarchist, my name wasn't really on the table.

My hope was that, as someone who had been advising Aav and conducting some level of espionage (I'd argue it was less espionage and more just general reporting on the situation) while apparently having no ambition for royalty, I might be picked.

Eaglenest was at this point growing... conscious, a little bit, that some sort of game was being played. He knew some sort of espionage was being conducted on the UA, and tried to pin it to Aden. And LM was realizing very fast exactly what I was doing (btw, kudos to LM for being possibly the brightest person in the region for connecting the dots very fast as to what kind of person I was).

So with all of this I ditched the UA, condemning it for a variety of reasons. I did this with Aden.

Aden and I began planning to launch a PM candidate between us. Originally, we were planning on competing with Aav and Eaglenest, but Eaglenest notified me that, thanks to my words, the UA would not be sending a candidate, leaving the race to likely be between Aav and whoever Aden and I sent.

I once again played the card of being uninterested in the spot and encouraging Aden to run. Aden seemed disinterested and instead encouraged me to run. However, when the UA decided they would support Aden as a compromise candidate, Aden decided he would run.

At this point, everything begins to unravel.

Aav pulls a plot twist on all of us by informing me they are planning an Edict to abolish the monarchy. Given that my entire goal is inheriting the throne, I really don't want this to go through. So, naturally, I turn to the Court.

Eaglenest, while annoyed that I betrayed the UA, was willing to work with me, as he also disagreed with the method of the monarch's abolishment. He agreed that it was unconstitutional, and asked me to provide an explanation as to why. I gave him one, told him to copy-and-paste it. I screenshotted all of this (I'd long since gotten in the habit of photographing every political discussion I had in case I could use it later).

Eaglenest releases the statement. Aav requests a trial. Eaglenest and I agree. Aav requests that the trial be dropped because Eaglenest has a bias. Eaglenest chooses not to.

And this is the point where I realize Eaglenest is at least a hundred miles out of his depth. Because I knew how well Aav knew court trials and how little Eaglenest actually understood the process, and because I wasn't confident in my ability to defeat Aav in a debate, I knew that, if Eaglenest made the trial go forward, Aav would easily win. Now, either Eaglenest would rule for Aav, and basically all my work would be for nothing, or Eaglenest would rule for me, in which case he would look unbelievably corrupt and Aav would tear him apart (and, though Aav would have to pick a Crown Prince, it certainly wouldn't be me).

Trying to think quickly, I review the Edict. Now, the Founder remains as a position though with no legal power except in emergency cases. However, because of how NS works, they maintain mechanical power. Now, the position would only be handed over to someone when Aav retired as Founder. That would probably be months, maybe years down the line. That's a really long wait. But if I somehow maintain my position as a close ally to them, maybe, just maybe, I'd get handed the spot when they leave. And then I could use the mechanical power to fully take over the region, in completion of my original goals.

So my number one priority at this point is maintaining my spot at Aav's side (if I ever held such a spot). I can drop the trial, but that won't be enough. So I resolved to commit one of the crueler acts of my long, winding path. I sent Aav the screenshots, providing testimony to Eaglenest's corruption, and pretending the entire trial had been a ruse to root him out.

Eaglenest and LM left, the Edict passed, and I resolved to play the long game.

And then I left. Mostly because NS was starting to affect my grades again, and then I was on vacation.

It's hard to explain. I keep taking absences from NS, attempting to quit. I realize more and more that I have serious issues of my own I need to work out, and that I'm hurting people and that's not OK.

I used to compare NS to cocaine because I'm stuck on it like a drug. And every time I quit, I feel that pull. "If you don't make it to the top, you've wasted this year and four months for nothing," it says. And I bend to it every time.

Tbh, big dispatches by me explaining "Oh, I have emotional problems," and "Oh, I'm quitting NS!" are kind of commonplace. Camp told me last time that I needed to quit before it became a boy-who-cried-wolf type scenario.

My hope is that, by telling everyone the full story, explaining that every moment, every interaction, every decision, has all been in the service of taking this region over, and explaining the amount of pain and suffering I put people through, that I won't be welcome back, and I won't be able to come back.

That is, by destroying my chance of ever rising to power, I can stop feeling compelled to come back in an attempt to.

And I wish that I could say I feel sorry, or that I wish I hadn't done any of this. But... I dunno. I don't really feel that. Whatever I should be feeling, guilt or whatever, just isn't coming to me.

Anyway, I hope and assume Aav did something about my absence in relation to my government spot. On the chance they haven't, I resign as Minister of Foreign Affairs and recommend Aden for the position.

And though I don't think a criminal code has been passed yet (maybe one has, I dunno), I also confess in full to:
- Treason
- Emotional Manipulation
- Social Manipulation
- Psychological Manipulation
- Espionage
- Fraud
- Incitement
- Insubordination
- Conspiracy to Blackmail

And any and all other charges that can be found in my testimony above.

Hopefully I won't be coming back. And if I do, please do not fall for any attempt at looking for forgiveness.

Also, please, someone, make a copy of this factbook in case I try to delete it later.

Au revoir. I'm going to go try to get a therapist or something.

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Au revoir.

You always said Machiavelli was your favorite author.

I believe, he would be proud of you.

The greg heffley and United Enclave State

Rebels and Saints wrote:
Heavy sigh.

Where to begin...

Let's go with the beginning, I guess.

Note: Some of the timing here is a little scrambled, exact order of events is difficult to remember.

As long as I can remember, I've had a really strange talent for gaining peoples' trust, or at least something close to it. Y'know, I have a really odd tendency to always be everyone's right-hand guy. Managing and assisting in peoples' campaigns, drafting needed documents, aiding in leadership, advising people, being a confidante for peoples' secrets. All that nonsense.

I don't really know why or how. Like, I can lie well enough, but that's based on tons of study of how to do that, and even then I don't pull it off well. I've never been a natural liar.

Yet constantly people end up allowing me to help them, be their assistant, second-in-command, friend, etc.

I'm just a little bit ashamed to say I abuse that. A lot.

I tend to be a very ambitious person. I have lofty goals and aspirations, and I tend to be willing to do whatever I have to to attain them. In the case of Liberalia, it took me a month's time to know exactly what I wanted: the throne. Not that there was a throne at the time, but the equivalent. I wanted to succeed Klorgia.

Basically everything I've ever done in Liberalia has been in service of that goal. The plan was simple:

First, I become Klorgia's friend. Second, become the friend of the individuals who had influence over him. Third, use my newfound influence to destroy each and every one of those individuals by making them look like traitors or by inciting conflict between them and Klorgia. Fourth, secure in a legal fashion my position as Klorgia's heir. Fifth, destroy Klorgia.

Obviously this plan has gone awry, but I'll go through it anyway.

The first step was extremely simple. Klorgia was a trusting person. And I was a new, ambitious, energetic, and generally fun (I like to think, anyway) member of the region. And also I was a major fan of a musical, which complemented nicely with Klorgia's theatrical talents and interests. It took just a little while (plus Pizza's resignation as Consulate), for Klorgia to appoint me as acting Diplomat.

Now, that might have been enough. But I find the best way to secure someone's friendship and to prove your loyalty is to choose their interests over your own. And Klorgia provided me with a perfect opportunity during my race against Aden.

See, Klorg voted for Aden. During my early start as Diplomat, I proposed a plan which focused on a general embassy wipe, something I still think was a good idea. Klorgia considered embassies to be a method of recruitment, and wanted to maintain them. Since he didn't like my foreign policy ideas, he supported Aden.

Seeing an opportunity, I began preaching that Klorgia should have more power over the government, and that I would only support his candidate, and that I therefore planned to drop out of the race. Surprise, surprise, by appealing to Klorgia's God complex, I won his vote. His support tied up the race.

The race was resolved by a... well, I've often said it was rigged, but saying that is mostly meant to make Klorg look bad. I don't believe it was rigged as much as it had a glaringly obvious bias that Klorg didn't consider. Either way, I easily won.

Now, step two was to secure the friendship of individuals who held influence in the government. I had to start doing this while I secured my relationship with Klorg. Now, I find that the best way to gain influence over members of government is to create members of government over which you already have influence. There's a quote: "When your enemies defy you, you must serve them steel and fire. When they go to their knees, however, you must help them back to their feet."

Basically, destroy your enemy, and then help them back up, but keep their success dependent upon yourself. That way, you will always hold influence over them.

Knowing all this, I turned to the candidate I had defeated, Aden, and offered him the position of Diplomat.

All this meant that I had defeated Aden, yet shown him mercy and aided him in attaining the second best position. That gave me influence over him, which increased my influence over the government.

Now, back to Klorg. I continued to work to gain influence over him by assisting in foreign affairs and proving my worth as Consulate. I slowly became a friend to him. Meanwhile, I did the same with other key Liberalians: Eaglenest, Aden, Benain, Uoool. I focused on achieving friendship or at least influence over all of them.

Steps one and two? Done. Easy. Step three is where things get crazy.

See, I planned to incite conflict between these influential individuals and Klorgia. But it was supposed to be on my timeline, when I was ready.

And then shìt started hitting the fan before I could get anywhere near ready.

I knew Eaglenest was the most likely candidate for conflict with Klorgia. He was sort of a good mirror to me: Ambitious in a healthy way, passionate about the success of himself and the region. Obviously he would come into conflict with Klorgia's iron grip on power.

But I meant for me to incite that conflict and control it, not for it to start on its own with no control over any of it.

Eaglenest and Klorgia got into a fight over the roleplay. And then Klorgia made himself look like an asshole by passing a set of rp rules which literally gave him the power to rule on all rp disputes at any time.

And Klorgia, I know that this whole factbook is about how I've been the villain this whole time and how you've mostly not been at fault, but honest opinion: That set of rules was terrible. You like to think you're an unbiased leader, but you rule in your own favor every time. You would've just overruled Eaglenest every time, so when I said the Freedom Bill was coming in some form or another, that's accurate, and that rule set was the moment when you proved just how willing you were to give yourself unlimited power.

Anyway, back to the story.

So, things were getting heated, and I saw a golden opportunity. I create a new Discord server, a private project, where I specifically, deliberately appointed Eaglenest as my chief mod and left Klorgia without a spot.

Now, anyone knows that Klorgia really likes being in charge of things. So, true to form, he requests a position as a mod. I lead him down a conversation to get him to say things that make him sound like he thinks he's owed a spot (he didn't think this, by the way, I spun the conversation to sound like that).

I took screenshots of all of it. Appoint him as a mod. Naturally, Eaglenest, having already existing disputes with Klorgia, questions why I appointed Klorg as a mod. I tell him of the conversation, drop a couple screenshots, play the card of "Oh, he's the founder of the region and I don't feel comfortable disobeying him because he's basically a God in Liberalia."

Eaglenest was already upset with Klorg. He already had issues with him. But playing to that allowed me to unlock that anger a little bit. To get him to go on about how mad he was, and to express his desire for a democracy. And by playing along, I gave him what he needed: an ally. Someone who he thought understands and sympathized with his anger toward Klorg.

So I wrote a bill. A bill that would be treasonous to support. A bill that certain individuals would love to put their name on. Eaglenest signed on. I got the entire Liberalian government to sign on in addition.

I knew by then my talent for weaseling my way out of trouble, for gaining opponents' trust after stabbing them in the back. I knew that I could get out of the bonfire that was about to be the Liberalian government.

But I had constructed what was, in affect, a confession to treason and disloyalty toward Klorg, and I had gotten it signed by the entire government. Step three? Ready to fire.

I announced with flourish the bill, and let the chaos rise. Immediately, shots are fired, the private discussions between government members become a warzone.

And at this point, Eaglenest just starts pouring out gold. Eaglenest doesn't have a filter, he says what he believes, and he's passionate enough to let his mouth move faster than his head. And in one of those moments, he proposes secession from Liberalia.

And goddamnìt, I could've sung with joy. "Eaglenest is organizing secession," I say to Klorgia. "If you don't pass this, he'll walk out with half the region."

Now, Klorgia was hesitant to believe this. After all, Eaglenest was his longtime friend, right? Now, all I had to do was make Eaglenest follow through on his words.

But it would take something monumental to get Eaglenest to do that. Klorgia would have to do something crazy. Banning someone, probably. Banning me?

If I were banned without good reason, Eaglenest would undoubtedly walk out. And with one fatal blow, I could crush the entire Liberalian government. Weasel my way out, secure myself as Klorgia's sole advisor.

So I had to find a way to get Klorgia to ban me, without actually doing anything wrong. I had to find some way to monumentally piss Klorg off without committing a crime.

And what's a fact that was becoming increasingly prevalent about Klorg?

He can't handle being criticized. He doesn't like being told he's doing something wrong.

Now, an election was rolling around, and I noticed Klorg change his vote a couple times. I know how to make anything look like a grand conspiracy, so I set about doing that. Writing a story about how Klorgia was using his influence to manipulate the vote and unseat strongly pro-Eaglenest Uoool.

And as I made conversations with people, I discovered something even better: Rhomanya and Sircana, two of the candidates running, were the same person. This was a golden opportunity to strike down another member of the Liberalian government! Now, Sircana could deny, so I needed a confession.

I went to Sircana. I explained that I wanted to tell a story about how Klorgia was trying to manipulate the election. And if Sircana could confess, that would help in writing it (may I point out that this makes zero sense, there was no way I could have used that). Sircana did confess. Better yet, as he confessed, he tried to defend himself by ratting out two other people. His opposing candidate, Uoool, was using Cassiliya as a secondary account. And better yet: Klorgia knew about both Sircana and Uoool's crimes and was allowing it.

I literally could've asked for nothing better. I had started out aiming to construct a fragile lie about Klorgia manipulating voters. I had come out with two confessions (I got one from Uoool as well) to real election fraud by Klorgia, Uoool, and Sircana.

I could take out Uoool and Sircana, and get Klorg to ban me, thereby getting Eaglenest (and possibly Aden) to leave the region, all in one ungodly fell swoop.

And that's what I did. I released the factbook. Benain quickly ruled to prevent Sircana from running for office in the future and Uoool from running for one election cycle. Klorg, calling me a liar, banned me. Eaglenest left the region.

I them proceeded to chat with Klorgia, weasel my way out of it, and get back to the region.

Now, it wasn't perfect. Aden was still here, and Uoool was merely damaged, not removed. Now, rather interestingly, through all of this, I maintained the trust of Eaglenest, Aden, and Uoool. And by the conversations I had before coming back, I managed to rewing Klorg's trust.

After all, Eaglenest had threatened to secede, and I had warned Klorgia. And Klorgia had decided I was lying, choosing to trust Eaglenest. And now Eaglenest had followed through on his secession. So clearly, Eaglenest was the lying snake and I was the one who was honestly trying to make the best of a bad situation and help Klorg out. Clearly.

It took little more effort than that to make Eaglenest out to Klorgia as the big bad villain. Suddenly, Klorgia and Eaglenest both thought I was on their side, both talking to me about their anger and feelings toward the other.

I played attempted peacemaker, making vague and unhelpful attempts to de-emotionalize the situation while slowly furthering conflict. I drove Klorgia nearly to the brink, made sure Eaglenest never wanted to return to a Klorgia-owned Liberalia again.

Aden was still there, but his influence was waning, and still ultimately dependent on me (I could have dismissed him as Diplomat at any time). Benain was fully present, but he was quiet, less likely to exercise his power in a damaging way to my ambitions. Uoool was still there, but as Eaglenest's closest ally, his influence over Klorg was virtually gone.

My power was at its height.

And then... I left.

It's a little difficult to explain why. Everything was going perfectly. Klorg was heavily considering leaving the game, I had an honest shot at being his successor, all my major opponents were out of the way.

But I was starting to get the vague sense that something was wrong with me. I knew I was hurting people, and at one point I had a phone call with Klorg, and... I didn't really feel anything. I didn't feel any empathy for him, I didn't feel bad about bringing him near the breaking point.

And tbh, that scared me. That I was destroying people's friendships, virtual and irl, and damaging their mental and physical health, all in the name of increasing my own power in a virtual game.

So I vanished. I briefly tried to start anew with a new account, to be an honest member of the UA, but my identity was quickly determined, so I abandoned it. I left NS for about three months. I was constantly tempted to go back, but I knew my membership in Liberalia was damaging to Liberalia, its members, and myself.

But eventually I got bored. I had moved to Washington State, I was settling into a new school, and I missed the political thrill of Liberalia. So I ran back.

It had been months, so I knew there would be changes.

When I came back, I quickly discovered the new major faces in the region, who would be my key opponents for influence. Most notably, these were Camp, Pi, Aav, and Drowsy. Aden and Benain were still there, of course.

So I took it upon myself to destroy each of these individuals, or to make their power dependent upon my own.

My first ploy was an obvious one: Paint Pi and Aav as dictators over the server. It really wasn't a hard picture to paint. Liberalia used to be very... libertarian in the way the server was governed, and the new structure and actual rules was easy to poke at, especially because some people were already mad about it.

Unfortunately (for me), Klorg was very favorable toward them. It took me all of two days to realize that he wouldn't be taking them down. It also took me all of two days to realize that Klorg's time as leader was waning. I don't know what gave me that impression, exactly. Just something in the overall tone of the region. And the successor, to me, was obvious: Aav.

So I resolved that if I couldn't destroy Aav before they rose to leadership, then I would become their right-hand man as quickly as possible.

Now, I wouldn't say I was necessarily successful at that. Aav is, whether they know it or not, a phenomenal political player. I could never tell whether I was their closest ally or not even important in their plans. But I did what I could: I tried to function as a helpful, useful mod, I conducted espionage on their enemies, I became a citizen of Hartfelden, all of it. Still have no idea how much influence over them I actually held.

As for the other major opponents of mine, Pi kindly left his position as a mod, which removed his threat. Camp took care of himself with his... er, discomforting behavior that got him banned.

I continued to try to keep Klorgia at the brink through this, hoping to make him leave due to the stress of it. I (may have) succeeded with this. That is, he left. I'm not entirely sure if it was because of me or other reasons (or, likely, a combination of factors).

Benain was appointed as his successor (I knew this beforehand, as Klorgia voiced to me in private his decision to make Benain his successor). Benain acted largely based on Klorgia's wishes, which was worrying, since those wishes distinctly involved "Do not let R&S have power." Worse, he appointed Drowsy as Crown Prince. Drowsy was very active in enforcing his wishes, which scared me (I had given him some trouble earlier on in my attempts to remove Aav and Pi). Meanwhile, Aden's anti-monarchist ideas (and anti-mod ones, now that I was an ally to Aav) were becoming a threat to the possibility of me rising to power (after all, if a democracy were actually established, game over for rising to the throne).

If I was going to control Benain and Drowsy, I would need to control the Court. And if I was going to minimize the actual ability to remove the monarchy, I needed to own the Senate and/or the CA, preferably by controlling the anti-monarchists myself.

In conclusion, I needed to quickly create a large anti-monarchist party, led by someone who I could easily manipulate into doing what I needed. If only there was a suitable candidate...

I reached out to Eaglenest, inviting him back to the region. He took care of bringing the rest of the UA. Aden joined up, we had a nice anti-monarchist party.

I took the prerogative to create an amendment disbanding the monarchy (that way no one else would), and then just had to make sure it was delayed. I actually didn't even have to come up with any excuses, because of all the craziness we went through.

Anyway, as this was going on, I made a grab at PM, hoping that maybe I'd get lucky, but I didn't.

Which was fine, since I had really friendly relations at this point with both Aav and Eaglenest, and was thereby able to secure a cabinet spot no matter who won.

Anyway, Benain, as expected, chose a UA candidate for Chief Justice (I was lucky enough that Benain chose Eaglenest). I mostly did Eaglenest's interview for him to keep him from saying anything that might endanger his candidacy (and also to keep Aav from making him look like an idiot, which they nearly did on multiple occasions because Latin).

Things are going well.

Now, Drowsy is becoming an increasingly prevalent threat, and I need to minimize popular support for Aav (after all, if they become too powerful, I've got another Klorg to deal with), so I focus on stoking the already simmering anti-Aav, anti-Drowsy fire. Not difficult, given how much they were already unhappy with them.

And then everything goes crazy.

Benain steps back and hands the throne to Drowsy. Ok, I think, I'll just focus on using my control (via Eaglenest) of the Court in order to limit his power. And then everything goes crazier. Everyone gets angry at Drowsy, Drowsy nearly starts a civil war, Aav is appointed as Crown Prince, Drowsy steps back and leaves the region, Aav becomes Emperor, we refound.

All at once, Aav has risen to the throne (as I predicted), and Drowsy, one of my key opponents, is out of the game.

But more dangerous, Aav is now PM and Emperor. Opposing them is a death wish. And, far more importantly, there's a new question: Who will be Aav's Crown Prince?

Obvious answer: Me.

Or, at least, that's the goal.

I began chatting with Aav and the UA about who the Crown Prince would be. I always pointed out how there were no good options, listing off how Rambo wasn't fit for the spot, Myno wasn't active enough, John was too new, and everyone else was UA. Whenever my name was brought up, I shot it down, pointing out that, as part of the UA and a vehement anti-monarchist, my name wasn't really on the table.

My hope was that, as someone who had been advising Aav and conducting some level of espionage (I'd argue it was less espionage and more just general reporting on the situation) while apparently having no ambition for royalty, I might be picked.

Eaglenest was at this point growing... conscious, a little bit, that some sort of game was being played. He knew some sort of espionage was being conducted on the UA, and tried to pin it to Aden. And LM was realizing very fast exactly what I was doing (btw, kudos to LM for being possibly the brightest person in the region for connecting the dots very fast as to what kind of person I was).

So with all of this I ditched the UA, condemning it for a variety of reasons. I did this with Aden.

Aden and I began planning to launch a PM candidate between us. Originally, we were planning on competing with Aav and Eaglenest, but Eaglenest notified me that, thanks to my words, the UA would not be sending a candidate, leaving the race to likely be between Aav and whoever Aden and I sent.

I once again played the card of being uninterested in the spot and encouraging Aden to run. Aden seemed disinterested and instead encouraged me to run. However, when the UA decided they would support Aden as a compromise candidate, Aden decided he would run.

At this point, everything begins to unravel.

Aav pulls a plot twist on all of us by informing me they are planning an Edict to abolish the monarchy. Given that my entire goal is inheriting the throne, I really don't want this to go through. So, naturally, I turn to the Court.

Eaglenest, while annoyed that I betrayed the UA, was willing to work with me, as he also disagreed with the method of the monarch's abolishment. He agreed that it was unconstitutional, and asked me to provide an explanation as to why. I gave him one, told him to copy-and-paste it. I screenshotted all of this (I'd long since gotten in the habit of photographing every political discussion I had in case I could use it later).

Eaglenest releases the statement. Aav requests a trial. Eaglenest and I agree. Aav requests that the trial be dropped because Eaglenest has a bias. Eaglenest chooses not to.

And this is the point where I realize Eaglenest is at least a hundred miles out of his depth. Because I knew how well Aav knew court trials and how little Eaglenest actually understood the process, and because I wasn't confident in my ability to defeat Aav in a debate, I knew that, if Eaglenest made the trial go forward, Aav would easily win. Now, either Eaglenest would rule for Aav, and basically all my work would be for nothing, or Eaglenest would rule for me, in which case he would look unbelievably corrupt and Aav would tear him apart (and, though Aav would have to pick a Crown Prince, it certainly wouldn't be me).

Trying to think quickly, I review the Edict. Now, the Founder remains as a position though with no legal power except in emergency cases. However, because of how NS works, they maintain mechanical power. Now, the position would only be handed over to someone when Aav retired as Founder. That would probably be months, maybe years down the line. That's a really long wait. But if I somehow maintain my position as a close ally to them, maybe, just maybe, I'd get handed the spot when they leave. And then I could use the mechanical power to fully take over the region, in completion of my original goals.

So my number one priority at this point is maintaining my spot at Aav's side (if I ever held such a spot). I can drop the trial, but that won't be enough. So I resolved to commit one of the crueler acts of my long, winding path. I sent Aav the screenshots, providing testimony to Eaglenest's corruption, and pretending the entire trial had been a ruse to root him out.

Eaglenest and LM left, the Edict passed, and I resolved to play the long game.

And then I left. Mostly because NS was starting to affect my grades again, and then I was on vacation.

It's hard to explain. I keep taking absences from NS, attempting to quit. I realize more and more that I have serious issues of my own I need to work out, and that I'm hurting people and that's not OK.

I used to compare NS to cocaine because I'm stuck on it like a drug. And every time I quit, I feel that pull. "If you don't make it to the top, you've wasted this year and four months for nothing," it says. And I bend to it every time.

Tbh, big dispatches by me explaining "Oh, I have emotional problems," and "Oh, I'm quitting NS!" are kind of commonplace. Camp told me last time that I needed to quit before it became a boy-who-cried-wolf type scenario.

My hope is that, by telling everyone the full story, explaining that every moment, every interaction, every decision, has all been in the service of taking this region over, and explaining the amount of pain and suffering I put people through, that I won't be welcome back, and I won't be able to come back.

That is, by destroying my chance of ever rising to power, I can stop feeling compelled to come back in an attempt to.

And I wish that I could say I feel sorry, or that I wish I hadn't done any of this. But... I dunno. I don't really feel that. Whatever I should be feeling, guilt or whatever, just isn't coming to me.

Anyway, I hope and assume Aav did something about my absence in relation to my government spot. On the chance they haven't, I resign as Minister of Foreign Affairs and recommend Aden for the position.

And though I don't think a criminal code has been passed yet (maybe one has, I dunno), I also confess in full to:
- Treason
- Emotional Manipulation
- Social Manipulation
- Psychological Manipulation
- Espionage
- Fraud
- Incitement
- Insubordination
- Conspiracy to Blackmail

And any and all other charges that can be found in my testimony above.

Hopefully I won't be coming back. And if I do, please do not fall for any attempt at looking for forgiveness.

Also, please, someone, make a copy of this factbook in case I try to delete it later.

Au revoir. I'm going to go try to get a therapist or something.

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Au revoir.

At the end of the day your are the great villian of your own RP nation. You became so confident in your abilities that you began writing a story of your own ideas on your ascension to power. I applaud your effort but dont appreciate the damage that has been done. My only hope is that you find a way to fight your demons and return to the person you want to be.

Adenaline, The greg heffley, and Rambotania

Well then. Guess I have to do something now.

Rebels and Saints wrote:
Heavy sigh.

Where to begin...

Let's go with the beginning, I guess.

Note: Some of the timing here is a little scrambled, exact order of events is difficult to remember.

As long as I can remember, I've had a really strange talent for gaining peoples' trust, or at least something close to it. Y'know, I have a really odd tendency to always be everyone's right-hand guy. Managing and assisting in peoples' campaigns, drafting needed documents, aiding in leadership, advising people, being a confidante for peoples' secrets. All that nonsense.

I don't really know why or how. Like, I can lie well enough, but that's based on tons of study of how to do that, and even then I don't pull it off well. I've never been a natural liar.

Yet constantly people end up allowing me to help them, be their assistant, second-in-command, friend, etc.

I'm just a little bit ashamed to say I abuse that. A lot.

I tend to be a very ambitious person. I have lofty goals and aspirations, and I tend to be willing to do whatever I have to to attain them. In the case of Liberalia, it took me a month's time to know exactly what I wanted: the throne. Not that there was a throne at the time, but the equivalent. I wanted to succeed Klorgia.

Basically everything I've ever done in Liberalia has been in service of that goal. The plan was simple:

First, I become Klorgia's friend. Second, become the friend of the individuals who had influence over him. Third, use my newfound influence to destroy each and every one of those individuals by making them look like traitors or by inciting conflict between them and Klorgia. Fourth, secure in a legal fashion my position as Klorgia's heir. Fifth, destroy Klorgia.

Obviously this plan has gone awry, but I'll go through it anyway.

The first step was extremely simple. Klorgia was a trusting person. And I was a new, ambitious, energetic, and generally fun (I like to think, anyway) member of the region. And also I was a major fan of a musical, which complemented nicely with Klorgia's theatrical talents and interests. It took just a little while (plus Pizza's resignation as Consulate), for Klorgia to appoint me as acting Diplomat.

Now, that might have been enough. But I find the best way to secure someone's friendship and to prove your loyalty is to choose their interests over your own. And Klorgia provided me with a perfect opportunity during my race against Aden.

See, Klorg voted for Aden. During my early start as Diplomat, I proposed a plan which focused on a general embassy wipe, something I still think was a good idea. Klorgia considered embassies to be a method of recruitment, and wanted to maintain them. Since he didn't like my foreign policy ideas, he supported Aden.

Seeing an opportunity, I began preaching that Klorgia should have more power over the government, and that I would only support his candidate, and that I therefore planned to drop out of the race. Surprise, surprise, by appealing to Klorgia's God complex, I won his vote. His support tied up the race.

The race was resolved by a... well, I've often said it was rigged, but saying that is mostly meant to make Klorg look bad. I don't believe it was rigged as much as it had a glaringly obvious bias that Klorg didn't consider. Either way, I easily won.

Now, step two was to secure the friendship of individuals who held influence in the government. I had to start doing this while I secured my relationship with Klorg. Now, I find that the best way to gain influence over members of government is to create members of government over which you already have influence. There's a quote: "When your enemies defy you, you must serve them steel and fire. When they go to their knees, however, you must help them back to their feet."

Basically, destroy your enemy, and then help them back up, but keep their success dependent upon yourself. That way, you will always hold influence over them.

Knowing all this, I turned to the candidate I had defeated, Aden, and offered him the position of Diplomat.

All this meant that I had defeated Aden, yet shown him mercy and aided him in attaining the second best position. That gave me influence over him, which increased my influence over the government.

Now, back to Klorg. I continued to work to gain influence over him by assisting in foreign affairs and proving my worth as Consulate. I slowly became a friend to him. Meanwhile, I did the same with other key Liberalians: Eaglenest, Aden, Benain, Uoool. I focused on achieving friendship or at least influence over all of them.

Steps one and two? Done. Easy. Step three is where things get crazy.

See, I planned to incite conflict between these influential individuals and Klorgia. But it was supposed to be on my timeline, when I was ready.

And then shìt started hitting the fan before I could get anywhere near ready.

I knew Eaglenest was the most likely candidate for conflict with Klorgia. He was sort of a good mirror to me: Ambitious in a healthy way, passionate about the success of himself and the region. Obviously he would come into conflict with Klorgia's iron grip on power.

But I meant for me to incite that conflict and control it, not for it to start on its own with no control over any of it.

Eaglenest and Klorgia got into a fight over the roleplay. And then Klorgia made himself look like an asshole by passing a set of rp rules which literally gave him the power to rule on all rp disputes at any time.

And Klorgia, I know that this whole factbook is about how I've been the villain this whole time and how you've mostly not been at fault, but honest opinion: That set of rules was terrible. You like to think you're an unbiased leader, but you rule in your own favor every time. You would've just overruled Eaglenest every time, so when I said the Freedom Bill was coming in some form or another, that's accurate, and that rule set was the moment when you proved just how willing you were to give yourself unlimited power.

Anyway, back to the story.

So, things were getting heated, and I saw a golden opportunity. I create a new Discord server, a private project, where I specifically, deliberately appointed Eaglenest as my chief mod and left Klorgia without a spot.

Now, anyone knows that Klorgia really likes being in charge of things. So, true to form, he requests a position as a mod. I lead him down a conversation to get him to say things that make him sound like he thinks he's owed a spot (he didn't think this, by the way, I spun the conversation to sound like that).

I took screenshots of all of it. Appoint him as a mod. Naturally, Eaglenest, having already existing disputes with Klorgia, questions why I appointed Klorg as a mod. I tell him of the conversation, drop a couple screenshots, play the card of "Oh, he's the founder of the region and I don't feel comfortable disobeying him because he's basically a God in Liberalia."

Eaglenest was already upset with Klorg. He already had issues with him. But playing to that allowed me to unlock that anger a little bit. To get him to go on about how mad he was, and to express his desire for a democracy. And by playing along, I gave him what he needed: an ally. Someone who he thought understands and sympathized with his anger toward Klorg.

So I wrote a bill. A bill that would be treasonous to support. A bill that certain individuals would love to put their name on. Eaglenest signed on. I got the entire Liberalian government to sign on in addition.

I knew by then my talent for weaseling my way out of trouble, for gaining opponents' trust after stabbing them in the back. I knew that I could get out of the bonfire that was about to be the Liberalian government.

But I had constructed what was, in affect, a confession to treason and disloyalty toward Klorg, and I had gotten it signed by the entire government. Step three? Ready to fire.

I announced with flourish the bill, and let the chaos rise. Immediately, shots are fired, the private discussions between government members become a warzone.

And at this point, Eaglenest just starts pouring out gold. Eaglenest doesn't have a filter, he says what he believes, and he's passionate enough to let his mouth move faster than his head. And in one of those moments, he proposes secession from Liberalia.

And goddamnìt, I could've sung with joy. "Eaglenest is organizing secession," I say to Klorgia. "If you don't pass this, he'll walk out with half the region."

Now, Klorgia was hesitant to believe this. After all, Eaglenest was his longtime friend, right? Now, all I had to do was make Eaglenest follow through on his words.

But it would take something monumental to get Eaglenest to do that. Klorgia would have to do something crazy. Banning someone, probably. Banning me?

If I were banned without good reason, Eaglenest would undoubtedly walk out. And with one fatal blow, I could crush the entire Liberalian government. Weasel my way out, secure myself as Klorgia's sole advisor.

So I had to find a way to get Klorgia to ban me, without actually doing anything wrong. I had to find some way to monumentally piss Klorg off without committing a crime.

And what's a fact that was becoming increasingly prevalent about Klorg?

He can't handle being criticized. He doesn't like being told he's doing something wrong.

Now, an election was rolling around, and I noticed Klorg change his vote a couple times. I know how to make anything look like a grand conspiracy, so I set about doing that. Writing a story about how Klorgia was using his influence to manipulate the vote and unseat strongly pro-Eaglenest Uoool.

And as I made conversations with people, I discovered something even better: Rhomanya and Sircana, two of the candidates running, were the same person. This was a golden opportunity to strike down another member of the Liberalian government! Now, Sircana could deny, so I needed a confession.

I went to Sircana. I explained that I wanted to tell a story about how Klorgia was trying to manipulate the election. And if Sircana could confess, that would help in writing it (may I point out that this makes zero sense, there was no way I could have used that). Sircana did confess. Better yet, as he confessed, he tried to defend himself by ratting out two other people. His opposing candidate, Uoool, was using Cassiliya as a secondary account. And better yet: Klorgia knew about both Sircana and Uoool's crimes and was allowing it.

I literally could've asked for nothing better. I had started out aiming to construct a fragile lie about Klorgia manipulating voters. I had come out with two confessions (I got one from Uoool as well) to real election fraud by Klorgia, Uoool, and Sircana.

I could take out Uoool and Sircana, and get Klorg to ban me, thereby getting Eaglenest (and possibly Aden) to leave the region, all in one ungodly fell swoop.

And that's what I did. I released the factbook. Benain quickly ruled to prevent Sircana from running for office in the future and Uoool from running for one election cycle. Klorg, calling me a liar, banned me. Eaglenest left the region.

I them proceeded to chat with Klorgia, weasel my way out of it, and get back to the region.

Now, it wasn't perfect. Aden was still here, and Uoool was merely damaged, not removed. Now, rather interestingly, through all of this, I maintained the trust of Eaglenest, Aden, and Uoool. And by the conversations I had before coming back, I managed to rewing Klorg's trust.

After all, Eaglenest had threatened to secede, and I had warned Klorgia. And Klorgia had decided I was lying, choosing to trust Eaglenest. And now Eaglenest had followed through on his secession. So clearly, Eaglenest was the lying snake and I was the one who was honestly trying to make the best of a bad situation and help Klorg out. Clearly.

It took little more effort than that to make Eaglenest out to Klorgia as the big bad villain. Suddenly, Klorgia and Eaglenest both thought I was on their side, both talking to me about their anger and feelings toward the other.

I played attempted peacemaker, making vague and unhelpful attempts to de-emotionalize the situation while slowly furthering conflict. I drove Klorgia nearly to the brink, made sure Eaglenest never wanted to return to a Klorgia-owned Liberalia again.

Aden was still there, but his influence was waning, and still ultimately dependent on me (I could have dismissed him as Diplomat at any time). Benain was fully present, but he was quiet, less likely to exercise his power in a damaging way to my ambitions. Uoool was still there, but as Eaglenest's closest ally, his influence over Klorg was virtually gone.

My power was at its height.

And then... I left.

It's a little difficult to explain why. Everything was going perfectly. Klorg was heavily considering leaving the game, I had an honest shot at being his successor, all my major opponents were out of the way.

But I was starting to get the vague sense that something was wrong with me. I knew I was hurting people, and at one point I had a phone call with Klorg, and... I didn't really feel anything. I didn't feel any empathy for him, I didn't feel bad about bringing him near the breaking point.

And tbh, that scared me. That I was destroying people's friendships, virtual and irl, and damaging their mental and physical health, all in the name of increasing my own power in a virtual game.

So I vanished. I briefly tried to start anew with a new account, to be an honest member of the UA, but my identity was quickly determined, so I abandoned it. I left NS for about three months. I was constantly tempted to go back, but I knew my membership in Liberalia was damaging to Liberalia, its members, and myself.

But eventually I got bored. I had moved to Washington State, I was settling into a new school, and I missed the political thrill of Liberalia. So I ran back.

It had been months, so I knew there would be changes.

When I came back, I quickly discovered the new major faces in the region, who would be my key opponents for influence. Most notably, these were Camp, Pi, Aav, and Drowsy. Aden and Benain were still there, of course.

So I took it upon myself to destroy each of these individuals, or to make their power dependent upon my own.

My first ploy was an obvious one: Paint Pi and Aav as dictators over the server. It really wasn't a hard picture to paint. Liberalia used to be very... libertarian in the way the server was governed, and the new structure and actual rules was easy to poke at, especially because some people were already mad about it.

Unfortunately (for me), Klorg was very favorable toward them. It took me all of two days to realize that he wouldn't be taking them down. It also took me all of two days to realize that Klorg's time as leader was waning. I don't know what gave me that impression, exactly. Just something in the overall tone of the region. And the successor, to me, was obvious: Aav.

So I resolved that if I couldn't destroy Aav before they rose to leadership, then I would become their right-hand man as quickly as possible.

Now, I wouldn't say I was necessarily successful at that. Aav is, whether they know it or not, a phenomenal political player. I could never tell whether I was their closest ally or not even important in their plans. But I did what I could: I tried to function as a helpful, useful mod, I conducted espionage on their enemies, I became a citizen of Hartfelden, all of it. Still have no idea how much influence over them I actually held.

As for the other major opponents of mine, Pi kindly left his position as a mod, which removed his threat. Camp took care of himself with his... er, discomforting behavior that got him banned.

I continued to try to keep Klorgia at the brink through this, hoping to make him leave due to the stress of it. I (may have) succeeded with this. That is, he left. I'm not entirely sure if it was because of me or other reasons (or, likely, a combination of factors).

Benain was appointed as his successor (I knew this beforehand, as Klorgia voiced to me in private his decision to make Benain his successor). Benain acted largely based on Klorgia's wishes, which was worrying, since those wishes distinctly involved "Do not let R&S have power." Worse, he appointed Drowsy as Crown Prince. Drowsy was very active in enforcing his wishes, which scared me (I had given him some trouble earlier on in my attempts to remove Aav and Pi). Meanwhile, Aden's anti-monarchist ideas (and anti-mod ones, now that I was an ally to Aav) were becoming a threat to the possibility of me rising to power (after all, if a democracy were actually established, game over for rising to the throne).

If I was going to control Benain and Drowsy, I would need to control the Court. And if I was going to minimize the actual ability to remove the monarchy, I needed to own the Senate and/or the CA, preferably by controlling the anti-monarchists myself.

In conclusion, I needed to quickly create a large anti-monarchist party, led by someone who I could easily manipulate into doing what I needed. If only there was a suitable candidate...

I reached out to Eaglenest, inviting him back to the region. He took care of bringing the rest of the UA. Aden joined up, we had a nice anti-monarchist party.

I took the prerogative to create an amendment disbanding the monarchy (that way no one else would), and then just had to make sure it was delayed. I actually didn't even have to come up with any excuses, because of all the craziness we went through.

Anyway, as this was going on, I made a grab at PM, hoping that maybe I'd get lucky, but I didn't.

Which was fine, since I had really friendly relations at this point with both Aav and Eaglenest, and was thereby able to secure a cabinet spot no matter who won.

Anyway, Benain, as expected, chose a UA candidate for Chief Justice (I was lucky enough that Benain chose Eaglenest). I mostly did Eaglenest's interview for him to keep him from saying anything that might endanger his candidacy (and also to keep Aav from making him look like an idiot, which they nearly did on multiple occasions because Latin).

Things are going well.

Now, Drowsy is becoming an increasingly prevalent threat, and I need to minimize popular support for Aav (after all, if they become too powerful, I've got another Klorg to deal with), so I focus on stoking the already simmering anti-Aav, anti-Drowsy fire. Not difficult, given how much they were already unhappy with them.

And then everything goes crazy.

Benain steps back and hands the throne to Drowsy. Ok, I think, I'll just focus on using my control (via Eaglenest) of the Court in order to limit his power. And then everything goes crazier. Everyone gets angry at Drowsy, Drowsy nearly starts a civil war, Aav is appointed as Crown Prince, Drowsy steps back and leaves the region, Aav becomes Emperor, we refound.

All at once, Aav has risen to the throne (as I predicted), and Drowsy, one of my key opponents, is out of the game.

But more dangerous, Aav is now PM and Emperor. Opposing them is a death wish. And, far more importantly, there's a new question: Who will be Aav's Crown Prince?

Obvious answer: Me.

Or, at least, that's the goal.

I began chatting with Aav and the UA about who the Crown Prince would be. I always pointed out how there were no good options, listing off how Rambo wasn't fit for the spot, Myno wasn't active enough, John was too new, and everyone else was UA. Whenever my name was brought up, I shot it down, pointing out that, as part of the UA and a vehement anti-monarchist, my name wasn't really on the table.

My hope was that, as someone who had been advising Aav and conducting some level of espionage (I'd argue it was less espionage and more just general reporting on the situation) while apparently having no ambition for royalty, I might be picked.

Eaglenest was at this point growing... conscious, a little bit, that some sort of game was being played. He knew some sort of espionage was being conducted on the UA, and tried to pin it to Aden. And LM was realizing very fast exactly what I was doing (btw, kudos to LM for being possibly the brightest person in the region for connecting the dots very fast as to what kind of person I was).

So with all of this I ditched the UA, condemning it for a variety of reasons. I did this with Aden.

Aden and I began planning to launch a PM candidate between us. Originally, we were planning on competing with Aav and Eaglenest, but Eaglenest notified me that, thanks to my words, the UA would not be sending a candidate, leaving the race to likely be between Aav and whoever Aden and I sent.

I once again played the card of being uninterested in the spot and encouraging Aden to run. Aden seemed disinterested and instead encouraged me to run. However, when the UA decided they would support Aden as a compromise candidate, Aden decided he would run.

At this point, everything begins to unravel.

Aav pulls a plot twist on all of us by informing me they are planning an Edict to abolish the monarchy. Given that my entire goal is inheriting the throne, I really don't want this to go through. So, naturally, I turn to the Court.

Eaglenest, while annoyed that I betrayed the UA, was willing to work with me, as he also disagreed with the method of the monarch's abolishment. He agreed that it was unconstitutional, and asked me to provide an explanation as to why. I gave him one, told him to copy-and-paste it. I screenshotted all of this (I'd long since gotten in the habit of photographing every political discussion I had in case I could use it later).

Eaglenest releases the statement. Aav requests a trial. Eaglenest and I agree. Aav requests that the trial be dropped because Eaglenest has a bias. Eaglenest chooses not to.

And this is the point where I realize Eaglenest is at least a hundred miles out of his depth. Because I knew how well Aav knew court trials and how little Eaglenest actually understood the process, and because I wasn't confident in my ability to defeat Aav in a debate, I knew that, if Eaglenest made the trial go forward, Aav would easily win. Now, either Eaglenest would rule for Aav, and basically all my work would be for nothing, or Eaglenest would rule for me, in which case he would look unbelievably corrupt and Aav would tear him apart (and, though Aav would have to pick a Crown Prince, it certainly wouldn't be me).

Trying to think quickly, I review the Edict. Now, the Founder remains as a position though with no legal power except in emergency cases. However, because of how NS works, they maintain mechanical power. Now, the position would only be handed over to someone when Aav retired as Founder. That would probably be months, maybe years down the line. That's a really long wait. But if I somehow maintain my position as a close ally to them, maybe, just maybe, I'd get handed the spot when they leave. And then I could use the mechanical power to fully take over the region, in completion of my original goals.

So my number one priority at this point is maintaining my spot at Aav's side (if I ever held such a spot). I can drop the trial, but that won't be enough. So I resolved to commit one of the crueler acts of my long, winding path. I sent Aav the screenshots, providing testimony to Eaglenest's corruption, and pretending the entire trial had been a ruse to root him out.

Eaglenest and LM left, the Edict passed, and I resolved to play the long game.

And then I left. Mostly because NS was starting to affect my grades again, and then I was on vacation.

It's hard to explain. I keep taking absences from NS, attempting to quit. I realize more and more that I have serious issues of my own I need to work out, and that I'm hurting people and that's not OK.

I used to compare NS to cocaine because I'm stuck on it like a drug. And every time I quit, I feel that pull. "If you don't make it to the top, you've wasted this year and four months for nothing," it says. And I bend to it every time.

Tbh, big dispatches by me explaining "Oh, I have emotional problems," and "Oh, I'm quitting NS!" are kind of commonplace. Camp told me last time that I needed to quit before it became a boy-who-cried-wolf type scenario.

My hope is that, by telling everyone the full story, explaining that every moment, every interaction, every decision, has all been in the service of taking this region over, and explaining the amount of pain and suffering I put people through, that I won't be welcome back, and I won't be able to come back.

That is, by destroying my chance of ever rising to power, I can stop feeling compelled to come back in an attempt to.

And I wish that I could say I feel sorry, or that I wish I hadn't done any of this. But... I dunno. I don't really feel that. Whatever I should be feeling, guilt or whatever, just isn't coming to me.

Anyway, I hope and assume Aav did something about my absence in relation to my government spot. On the chance they haven't, I resign as Minister of Foreign Affairs and recommend Aden for the position.

And though I don't think a criminal code has been passed yet (maybe one has, I dunno), I also confess in full to:
- Treason
- Emotional Manipulation
- Social Manipulation
- Psychological Manipulation
- Espionage
- Fraud
- Incitement
- Insubordination
- Conspiracy to Blackmail

And any and all other charges that can be found in my testimony above.

Hopefully I won't be coming back. And if I do, please do not fall for any attempt at looking for forgiveness.

Also, please, someone, make a copy of this factbook in case I try to delete it later.

Au revoir. I'm going to go try to get a therapist or something.

Read dispatch

Au revoir.

Your a master at deception and manipulation you would make a great politician. I feel bad for klorgia after your confession.

Yo yo yo if you have discord go now and vote for senator elections!

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